My Love Until the Last Goodbye (Mary and Maximus) novel Chapter 860

Chapter 0860

“If you’re asking me if I’m scared–yeah. I’m terrified. This has never happened to me before… at least, not that I remember.

“When I was 25, I won’t lie to you–I wasn’t a saint. Not even close. Money and pleasure were my priorities. Back then, I had a toxic, messed up relationship with Alden’s mother. But that was years ago.

“And then there’s some woman named Mary. Apparently, she was important to me, but I can connect my life to hers. All I know is that now, she’s married to my best friend and has a happy family.

“Celeste, I know I’m not the best man for you. Look at me- I have nothing but money. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I lost my identity.

“Yesterday, I had a breakdown over the damn clothes in my closet. I know it sounds stupid, but it’s not. Every time I walk into my room, I feel like I’m suffocating. That’s why I wanted to come here–to see if there’s anything left I can rebuild.”

He let out a deep breath before continuing.

“If I’m being completely honest, up until yesterday, when I got home… I didn’t know what the hell to do with you.

“I didn’t know how to act around you.

“Fuck, Celeste… You’re the mother of my children.

“And the moment I touched your belly, I knew it was real. They’re there. It’s not a dream. It’s not a lie.

“They’re real, and they need us.

“‘You said it yourself–being alone hurts.

“I wasn’t alone as a child, but at 16, my father dumped me in a boarding school in Galea and never looked back. From that moment on, I had to learn to survive on my own. I even tried to kill myself once.

“Loneliness is a dangerous thing. It makes you do stupid shit.

“And I admire you for that.

“You’re strong.

“I can’t even imagine you at six years old, alone.