My Sweet Seduction novel Chapter 54

I LICK MY lower lip. It felt for a moment on my side before I opened my lips.

“Uhm, I just want to apologize for what I did last night. I haven’t been able to say goodbye to you properly,” I started.

But he did not answer; only a heavy sigh was released.

I looked up at him, and those dark and piercing eyes looked down on me.

“You’re not here just to say sorry for what happened last night, are you?” he said in a baritone voice.

My former courage to stare at him is gradually dissolving. I lowered my head down ashamedly. My heart, which had been beating so hard before, seemed to speed up even more because of what he said.

“I saw you with Lawrence last night. You also came together today.”

I swallowed hard. I closed my eyes to stop the tears from falling in my eyes. I also bite down my lip hard and clasp my hand tightly.

“Don’t worry about me. I understand. I always will, Margaux,” he said in a low tone.

My tears kept falling. I felt guilty. He will surely not forgive me for hurting him. I only used him for the sake of my self-interest. I didn’t even think about how he would feel just in case. I used him for my own sake of happiness and did not think about how he felt.

“I’m sorry . . .” I finally say.

Instead of speaking, he chose to sit next to me. His hand slowly reached up and wiped my tears gently.

“Shh. You don’t have to say sorry for everything that you’ve had done. I want to accompany you and take care of you during those times. It’s my choice not to leave you behind. Because that is what you deserve for the very first place,” he said in a hushed voice.

My heart ached even more at the words he uttered. I felt really guilty for all the shit that I’ve done to hurt him. The word forgiveness is not enough to alleviate the pain I gave him.

I didn’t even think about it. I crossed the gap between us to hug him tightly. I heard his soft laughs and his tight hug in between my burst of emotion. As usual, it was still nice to be locked in his arms. His sweet smell and the strong heartbeat that sounded like music to my ears were still delicious.

I will definitely miss him so much. I will surely miss everything about him. His sweetness. His loving touch and his warm and soothing hug. I will definitely miss all of that.

***

MY EMOTIONS ARE mixed down on the phone. I received a call from Lawrence. He invited me on a date tonight.

I’m kinda excited. I feel like I am moving faster and have the strength to finish work early.

“Hmm, are you blooming again, Madame?” Karen smiled; her eyes shined with amusement.

I smiled back. I got up, packed my things, and prepared myself to go home.

“See you tomorrow, Karen!” I said. I just left her with a sweet smile before I left my office.

I even heard her temptation of me that I just ignored. I got straight to my car and quickly drove home.

When I got home, I immediately kissed Clarence. “How’s your day, my little handsome?” I ask.

Even though I knew it would not answer, I still enjoyed talking about it. How can he just smile and giggle as I bite?

“Ah, Doris, you take care of Clarence first. I’m just going to have a meeting so I can stay up late.”