My Two Alphas novel Chapter 19

　　"Lucy open the goddamn door and stop ignoring us" Ace yells, snapping me to my surroundings. My hair sticking to my face as I broke out in a cold sweat, goosebumps covering my arms.

　　I was on the cold grey tiled floor. I shakily get to my feet before trying to compose myself, trying to convince myself they weren't my memories as I shove them away, back in my box locking it away where it can;t get me. I open the door to find Ace and Tyson in the hallway. Ace looked livid while Tyson looked concerned standing behind him. Ace towering over me as he glared down at me, taking up nearly the entire door frame.

　　"Lucy come here" Tyson says, waving his hands forward wanting me to go to him. I was tempted until Ace spoke, his arm blocking the doorway when I tried to move through it effectively blocking me. I look up at him. I only reached up to his chest as he stared down at me intimidatingly.

　　"Explain, you hate me being with Melana yet we are supposed to be ok with you lying to us and sleeping with your teacher, A FUCKING TEACHER?" He screams at me.

　　"I never lied, now move so I can leave Ace '' I tell him, becoming sick and tired of the accusations, everyone always pointing the finger at me, haven't they realised by now I usually own up to the shit I do, but that, I won't own that because that isn't me. It's amazing how carefree and blinded you are until something like that destroys your world, turning everything on its axis, showing you with brutal clarity how easily you can be destroyed, how vulnerable you can become. The shame that comes with it, the what ifs, the guilt when you realise how powerless you are shoving the blame inward. I question every action, every word I ever say now, wondering if I somehow asked for it, I didn't need others doing the questioning and accusing me for something I never dreamt could happen.

　　In the facility they broke our bodies, killed my wolf. But it is nothing compared to breaking your own tormented mind, sharp edges pricking and slicing at your memories constantly waiting for something to trigger it back to the forefront of your mind. The anxiety that comes with trying not to remember when it does, certain scents, certain noises, shit even in my Adrenaline filled fear, I still remember the song coming through the PA systems softly as I escaped. A body can be fixed but a mind. No, that remains tortured, looming over you a tearing at you piece by piece until there is nothing left but hopelessness and despair, a longing for who you used to be before your world turned upside down.

　　"No, not until you tell me who it is, I want to know who my mate was fooling around with. You come home and attack Melana when you are just as bad, shit not even I fucked my teachers Lucy, have you no limits" Ace snaps at me.

　　Yet I was stuck on one word, one word that is supposed to signify your other half, signify safety, mate.

　　"What did you just say?" I asked him, needing him to repeat it, surely I didn't imagine it.

　　"You heard me Lucy, now tell me who he is, I won't have our mate lying to us now tell me?" Ace screams at me.