"Man, Ravyn made the whole situation ten times worse. He said it was proof of what he’d always thought about you. That you were inconsistent and couldn’t be trusted. He claimed that was the reason he never really liked you in the first place."
Voren’s expression stayed mostly the same but something in his eyes got a little colder when he mentioned it.
"I told myself you probably needed some space. That I was crowding you too much, and maybe if I just stepped back and gave you room to breathe, things would eventually find their way back to normal. So I left again. And this time I stayed gone for years."
Seraphine stayed completely still on her back beside him on the bed, staring up at the ceiling right alongside him like they were both watching the same old movie playing out above them.
"When I came back," Voren continued. "It was even worse than before."
He let that hang there for a second before he kept going with the story.
"It was your eighteenth birthday." The corner of his mouth moved just a tiny bit.
"When we were kids, you always used to talk about becoming a doctor. Every single time someone asked you what you wanted to be when you grew up, that was your answer every time. You never changed your mind about it." He glanced over at her sideways.
"So while I was out there building the future I planned for us, I pulled strings to secure a spot for you in the college you attended, though, you still had to go through some procedures but I had great faith in your abilities. Everything was lined up perfectly."
His voice got quieter almost without him realizing it.
"That’s what I’d come back to tell you. But you were standing on that hill." Seraphine closed her eyes tight.
"And you were looking at Ravyn like he was the only person in the whole world who existed." Voren’s voice didn’t break at all. It just went very, very flat. "And you told him you loved him right there in front of everyone."
The silence after that felt really heavy in the room.
"That broke me." He said it simply, like someone who had already grieved it so completely that there was nothing left to act out.
"I left that day with no intention of ever coming back. Not to the centenary pack, not to any of it." He kept staring at the ceiling. "But I still found a way to send you that admission letter. I made it anonymous because I feared you would reject it if it came directly from me, just as you rejected my other gifts. I still wanted you to have that chance."
Seraphine’s breath caught somewhere in the middle of her chest.
"It was you?" Her voice came out small and a little unsteady. Her eyes stung and she blinked fast, trying hard to hold everything back.


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