Standing on the balcony, Cheng Su wrapped her coat tightly around herself, her hands hugging her body, yet a drizzling rain fell outside. Despite being just a drizzle, she still felt an eerie coldness creeping from all directions, piercing into her bones.
But compared to the coldness in her bones, Cheng Su felt even colder inside.
Qi Taiguo’s decision made her feel incredibly cold and terrified. The understanding and support he spoke of were things she simply couldn’t muster.
He could go to other military units, he could separate from her and their son, she accepted that, but going to the battlefield for Aid Africa, facing life-threatening situations at any moment, how could she accept that?
Knowing that the level of danger would be magnified, how could she still remain calm as before, saying she supports him? That would be too fake!
But he said he was already on the list.
Cheng Su’s heart tightened into a ball, a feeling of congestion overwhelming her, she couldn’t help but clench her fists and pound her heart a few times, as if only by doing so could she release the stifling air.
Military orders cannot be defied, he must go, no matter how much she pleads, he can’t say no.
But why is this so painful here?
Tears began to flow from Cheng Su’s eyes again.
She felt an arm wrap around her waist, warmth suddenly enveloping her back, but Cheng Su remained motionless, allowing her tears to flow freely.
"You need to stay calm and don’t stand here, it’s windy. What if you catch a cold?" Qi Taiguo said.
Cheng Su replied, "If I froze to death, that would be better. Then I wouldn’t have to watch you go off to die."
Doesn’t it happen that pies fall from the sky?
Cheng Su gave a self-deprecating smile.
Call her selfish if you like, whatever you like; she is just an ordinary woman, only wanting her husband to be safe.
"I’m sorry." Qi Taiguo held her, only able to say, "Susu, I’m sorry."
Cheng Su closed her eyes, a single "sorry" already acknowledged his stance. She had no more room to persuade him, only after a while did she say, "Don’t say anything, I understand."
She pushed him away and walked back into the house. Qi Taiguo stood on the balcony, looking at her back, suddenly pounding the railing with a fist in frustration.

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