After being interrupted by Cheng Su, Hualing felt less sorrowful and melancholic. Her mood improved significantly, and she could discuss the issue of forgiveness with Cheng Su.
"Actually, I really don’t know what to do. When I think of his betrayal, I hate him so much it gnaws at my insides. I cry day and night, feeling like the sky is falling, I can’t eat, and I can’t sleep well. You’ve seen the sorry state I’m in, haven’t you? That’s how it started." Hualing pointed to her own face and said, "Because of this, I’ve thought about divorce countless times. When I think about him being intimate with another woman and then with me... I just find him filthy, disgustingly filthy, and I can’t stand it."
Cheng Su remained silent. She could understand. So-called marital fidelity means being faithful in both body and mind. When one party opens up to a third party, the other is bound to feel uncomfortable.
"I hit him, I cursed him, even my parents scolded him for being heartless. My dad even smashed an ashtray on his head, leaving a wound. But in the end, what my parents said was, as long as he completely cuts ties with that woman, for the sake of the child, forgive him this time." Hualing chuckled, touching her still undisclosed belly, and said, "You see, having a child becomes a leverage. Even divorce becomes difficult."
Cheng Su listened and wasn’t surprised. In the 21st century, this kind of thing is common. How many couples make do just for the sake of the kids? And how many parents advise to let it go, for the kids’ sake?
Not to mention, this is the mid-1980s, where the divorce rate was incredibly low, and such matters were typically swept under the rug.
"And what about you? What’s your own thought? Do you want to leave?"
Hualing shook her head, "I’m not sure, I don’t know. Sometimes I think, if I leave, wouldn’t that be letting that woman have her way? Why should I give in to such a shameless person and her illegitimate child? Then my child would become fatherless. If I don’t leave, how do I face Chen Shouwang? I really find it disgusting. Moreover, can I even keep the child in my belly?"


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