Ditched Cheating Alpha, I Led My Daughter to Life's Peak novel Chapter 119

I look up at him. I expect to see his eyes changing color, or an angry expression, but I just see pain. Just like that day in the backyard.

"Talk to me," he says.

It hurts because I can tell he feels rejected all over again and I don't know how to tell him that I'm upset because I kissed his brother and I don't know where we stand. He thinks something's genuinely wrong with me, but the only problem is I can't deal with my own guilt.

"I can be serious." He gives me an overly tense expression.

I chuckle a bit, feeling a heaviness in my heart, and he chuckles too.

"Okay that was the opposite effect," he says. "But I stand by what I said. I can be there for you in this way." He takes my hand, holding it firmly.

"I know." I hold his hand back just as firmly as he's holding mine. "Okay, let's talk."

He smiles and moves closer to me, ready to pull me into his arms.

I step back quickly. "Maybe stay there. I don't know how you'll..." I can't even look at him. I hold his hand tighter, wondering if even that is too much contact. "Do... you know what happened yesterday?"

He nods, rubbing the back of my hand. "You and Aiden were fighting."

"What?" I look up at him.

He raises an eyebrow. "You and Aiden got into a fight when he was taking you home, didn't you?"

"What makes you think that?"

He shrugs. "He's blocking mindlink. That only happens when he's fighting with you."

"Oh," I say.

"Am I wrong?" he asks.

I shake my head. "No, I mean something did happen yesterday, but that's not what's bothering me right now. Well... it is, but we can talk about it later all together because I think it involves all of us equally." I nod, liking my words. "But right now it's something else."

"Okay," he says more like a question. "So what is it right now?"

If I don't say something of importance, Carson'll feel like I don't trust him with serious stuff. He'll think I don't want to talk to him. But if I tell him I kissed Aiden, he won't trust me. And if I keep lying, I might ruin whatever it is that we have.

And where is Aiden during all of this? He's basically lying to his brothers about what happened and leaving me to carry all the blame when he's the one that kissed me.

"Don't ever say that," he cuts me off.

I flinch. He said it so forcefully.

"Sorry." He runs his fingers through his hair before he pulls me into his arms. He rests his head on top of mine. "I'm sorry, it's just very rude. I don't want someone to hear or... him to think... Or Axel. If he thinks..."

"Sorry," I say quickly. "I didn't mean it. I don't even know what it means."

"I know," he says.

I hesitate, unsure of what to say. "Is it because he's half human or something?" I look up.

His jaw looks tight. He looks genuinely uncomfortable. "Maybe you were right. Maybe you should ask Axel or Onai about this."

I shake my head. "I'll just forget it." I feel a little embarrassed being reprimanded. I take a step towards the gym. "Let's go, we're already late."

He doesn't say anything for a while, but then he stops me before I'm out of arm's reach. "No. I can tell you." He looks to the side. "It's important for you to understand anyway. And maybe it would be easier for Onai to not have to always say it."