First Chosen by the Dragon (Evelyn) novel Chapter 45

[Evelyn’s POV]

Day six, and the bond is drowning me. Not the slow ache I’ve learned to carry like a second heartbeat—this is a flood, black water pouring through every seam in my composure.

Aspis’s distress hits in waves that buckle my knees at unexpected moments: shelving a ledger in the archives, standing still while a Blue Dragon’s delegate passes close enough to brush my sleeve. Each time the panic crests, I grip whatever surface is nearest and ride it out, jaw locked, breath measured.

She is chest-high now, bulky. Wings that stretched in the first hiding chamber now crumple against walls that were spacious weeks ago, folding at angles that spike pain through the bond. She snaps at shadows—not hunting. Flinching.

The darkness that once cradled her has become a cage, and the cage shrinks by the hour. I feel her claws scraping stone in desperate drags, and when I close my eyes I see what she sees: raw grooves in the rock, streaked with blood where her claws have torn past the quick.

“I can’t breathe,” she tells me on the sixth morning, and the words are small in a way that Aspis has never been small. “The walls are touching me, Evelyn. They’re pressing in and I can’t make them stop.”

“I know. Hold on. Just hold on a little longer.” I beg her.

“You keep saying that. How much longer is longer?” I don’t answer, because the truth would break something in her that I can’t afford to let break. Instead I press my forehead against the archive wall and breathe for both of us while the delegation’s laughter drifts through the corridor outside like smoke from someone else’s fire.

Riven finds me at dusk. He appears in the service passage with salt on his boots and sand in his hair, carrying the energy of a man who has spent the afternoon crawling through sea caves.

“Found something,” he says, voice low enough that the stone swallows it. “Deeper in the network, past the tidal shelf. A chamber—triple the size of what she’s in now. Natural arch open to the sky above the waterline, rock formations blocking any sightline from the compound.”

“How deep?”

“Deep enough that the passage narrows before it opens. She’ll fit, but barely.” He meets my eyes. “It has to be tonight, Evelyn. If she stays where she is, she’s going to hurt herself. Or worse—someone’s going to hear her.”

He’s right. I’ve known it for two days, and hearing it spoken aloud doesn’t make it easier. It makes it real.

We go at the darkest hour. The compound sleeps above us, and the three of us move through the tunnel network like a held breath. Riven scouts ahead, the lantern shuttered to a razor-thin line of amber.

Draven and I flank Aspis, one hand each against her sides, guiding her through passages that were generous a month ago and now scrape her flanks with every step.

She whimpers through the bond. Not a roar, not the furious defiance of the dragon who swore she’d burn compounds to ash before she’d be caged.

A whimper—small and ashamed, the sound of a creature made less than she is by walls she cannot fight. It guts me more completely than any scream ever could.

“I’m sorry,” she whispers as her left wing catches a jutting rock and folds wrong, scales scraping stone like tearing silk. “I’m trying to be smaller.”

“Don’t you dare apologize.” My voice cracks. I press my palm flat against her neck, feeling the heat of her pulse beneath white scales. “You are exactly the size you’re supposed to be. The world needs to get bigger, not you.”

Aspis doesn’t shriek the way she did when we found the first cave. She walks to the water’s edge with the slow dignity of a creature reclaiming something stolen, spreads her wings to their full span—tips trembling, white scales catching starlight—and breathes.

His hand catches mine. Holds it there, my palm against his jaw, fingers wrapped around my wrist where my pulse hammers. We’re inches apart, his breath warm on my fingers, the cave dark and vast around us and Aspis a white silhouette at the water’s edge with wings still spread like prayers.

His thumb traces the inside of my wrist, slow and deliberate, following the vein where my heartbeat confesses everything my mouth won’t say.

Riven’s boots echo from the passage—returning from his patrol sweep, steady and unhurried. We separate. His hand releases mine. My arm drops to my side. The distance falls between us like a curtain drawn across a lit window, and neither of us looks at the other as Riven’s lantern rounds the corner.

“Passage is clear,” Riven reports. “No activity above. We’ve got until dawn before the first patrols.”

I nod, so does Draven. We begin the climb back through the tunnels in silence, and the ghost of his pulse against my palm stays with me all the way—steady, warm, and certain as a heartbeat I’m learning to trust more than my own.

But trust can be easily broken. With all the secrets I harbor, there will come a day, and very soon, when that trust evaporates and it will be replaced by searing hatred.

Would I still feel like this when that happens?