He Came Back Running (Maya and Mason) novel Chapter 176

Chapter 176

Selina’s POV

The hotel room had become unbearable by the third day…. Not physically though, the room was fine…. The bed was good. The blackout curtains were excellent.

What was unbearable was the screen

I had told myself I would stop reading the coverage at noon on the first day. Then at six on the second day. Each time the resolution lasted approximately forty minutes before the specific, compulsive pull of watching your own life being discussed by people who had never met you overwhelmed whatever discipline I had available.

By the third morning, I had stopped pretending I was going to stop.

I read it all….

Every article. Every comment thread. Every think piece that used my name as a data point in an argument about women who destroyed other women….

They were not wrong.

That was the thing I kept arriving at and kept moving past… they were not wrong. The clinic records were accurate. The consultations had happened. The payments were mine. Daniel Cole had not fabricated anything except the timing of his own exit.

The truth was out and the truth was what it was and every time I closed the laptop I opened it again because the alternative was sitting in the silence of a hotel room with nothing between me and what I had done and I was not, I had discovered, ready for that particular silence.

Maya was the shape my anger kept finding

Not rationally….. Maya had not hired Daniel Cole. Maya had not built the situation that had produced this. Maya had spent eight years on the receiving end of choices I had made and had walked out the other end of them having built something I had not believed she was capable of building.

None of that was Maya’s fault

The anger did not care.

The anger found her anyway, the way it found the nearest available target when the actual target was too complicated to address directly. And the actual target was too complicated to address directly because the actual target was me…. the choices I had made, the calculation that had run beneath fifteen years of a life I had told myself was simply strategic and had apparently been something considerably worse.

I could not be angry at myself any further.

I had reached the limit of that

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So the anger went to Maya.

I saw the coverage shift on the third afternoon

New questions about Maya. A story circulating…. not the careful, documented kind that Daniel’s release had produced, but the other kind, the kind that moved on heat rather than evidence. Photographs from a restaurant. A man. A dinner. While her fiancé fights for his life.

I read the story three times

Then I sat with it.

Someone had done this deliberately. The photographs were real…. you could tell the difference, after enough time reading coverage, between entirely fabricated images and real images stripped of context….. but the framing was constructed.

Someone had taken a real evening and made it into something it wasn’t

Nothing about it mattered to me in the way it should have mattered….. as information about a threat to Maya, as evidence of something I should communicate to someone, as the kind of intelligence that a decent person would act on.

The anger was not interested in what a decent person would do.

The anger was interested in Maya

Still at the hospital.

Still surrounded.

Still, according to every report, the person everyone was rallying around…. Alex’s family, the detective, her company, the public sympathy machine that had been running since the shooting and had apparently absorbed the leaked files and the paternity scandal and the wedding disaster and had continued running regardless, because Maya was the kind of person the narrative had decided to protect.

I put the laptop down

Picked up my coat.

The drive to the hospital took eighteen minutes

The question of whether confronting Maya in a hospital corridor was rational, was useful, was going to produce anything except two women in a public space with a great deal of unresolved history between them….. I had finished with that question before I reached the car park.

I was not going for rational

I was going because sitting in a hotel room reading about myself was going to break something that couldn’t be put back together once it broke, and moving was the only thing I had left.

The hospital floor was the same floor I had been on weeks ago

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Different reason. Same corridor.

I walked through it without looking at anyone

Turned the corner toward Alex’s room.

And stopped

Maya was in the corridor.

Standing near the window at the far end, her phone in her hand….

She was wearing the clothes of someone who had been at a hospital for days and had reached the point of prioritising function over anything else. No performance. No management. Just Maya, in a corridor, doing what she had been doing for weeks, which was simply being present in the space where the person she loved was fighting his way back.

The sight of her produced a response I hadn’t anticipated

Not the anger… the anger was still there, running at full temperature.

But underneath it, arriving without permission, something I hadn’t named in fifteen years of choosing not

to name it.

Shame

She turned.

The moment she saw me, something moved across her face…. not fear

She held her ground.

Of course she did.

I crossed the corridor toward her….

Her eyes tracked me the way eyes tracked things that required full attention without communicating what the attention was for…. watchful, present, not hostile but not open.

We stood three feet apart in a hospital corridor

The same corridor.

“Selina,” she said.

Her voice was level.

Not warm. Not cold.

I hated her for that

I hated that she could do that.

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I hated that after everything… after the clinic and the consultations and the years of choosing Mason over her and the three losses that I had been responsible for, she was standing in a hospital corridor with her voice at that temperature, looking at me like I was a problem she was prepared to address rather than a person she had every right to walk away from.

I had come with things to say

I had spent eighteen minutes in a car arriving at the things I intended to say…. about how she had always been in the way, about how the life I had built around her absence had been a real life that she was somehow still managing to reach into, about how the fairness of the situation, the sheer fundamental unfairness of a world where Maya Hargrove walked away from everything intact….

I opened my mouth.

And what came out was not the anger.

“I’m sorry,” I said.

Two words.

Arriving before I had decided to say them

Her expression didn’t change.

But her eyes did.

Something moved in them…. not forgiveness, not warmth, not any of the things that apologies were supposed to produce. Something rawer than that.

We stood in the corridor.

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