His Moonsilver Mate (Abby and Kade) novel Chapter 30

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1:51 pm

Chapter 30

Abby

Of course it could.

I looked away.

For one stupid second, I had still hoped he would say the timing was wrong. That there was some obvious reason the baby couldn’t be his.

But there wasn’t.

He had been with Sloane before my birthday.

Before Diana woke.

Before he knew I was his mate.

I understood that.

It didn’t make it hurt less.

Kade stayed near the door.

“She and I were over before tonight,” he said quietly. “That hasn’t changed.”

“I know.”

“If there is a baby, I’ll take responsibility.”

“You should.”

“The child would be innocent.”

“I know that too.”

My voice cracked slightly.

I hated it.

Kade took a careful step toward me.

“Abby.”

I wrapped my arms around myself.

Everything felt tangled.

He had rejected me.

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Changed his mind.

Reopened his side of the bond after I was kidnapped..

Now he was telling me he loved me while half the pack was trying to understand what Diana might be.

And Sloane might be carrying his child.

“I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with any of this.”

“You don’t have to do anything tonight.”

“That doesn’t make it go away!”

“No.”

At least he didn’t pretend it did.

Kade moved closer.

“Come here.”

He opened his arms.

I hesitated.

Then I stepped into them.

The moment he held me, something inside me gave..

I pressed my face against his chest and breathed him in.

Cedar.

Cold night air.

Kade.

My body relaxed before my mind could stop it.

His hand moved slowly over my back.

He didn’t explain.

Didn’t make another promise.

He just held me.

For a little while, I let him.

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That was the problem.

It still felt too good.

Too safe.

I closed my eyes.

Then Sloane’s face came back to me.

Her hand resting over her stomach.

Who is going to choose me if I’m carrying someone else’s baby?

I went still.

Kade felt it immediately and loosened his arms.

I stepped back.

“If she’s pregnant, she’ll always be part of your life.”

His brows drew together.

“As the mother of my child, yes.”

“Birthdays. Pack events. Decisions about the baby. You’ll have to see her. Talk to her.”

“Yes.”

My throat tightened.

“So she’ll always be there.”

“She won’t be part of us.”

“You can’t know she won’t affect us.”

“I know she doesn’t change how I feel about you.”

I looked at him.

“I don’t even know what I believe anymore.”

Pain moved across his face.

“Believe me.”

The words came rougher than before.

“Please.”

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My chest hurt.

“Kade-”

“I rejected you. I know what I did. I know I gave you reasons not to trust me.”

He stopped just short of touching me.

“But I love you. Not Diana. Not what she might be. You.”

I wanted to believe him.

That was what made this so hard.

“I know you believe that.”

“I don’t believe it. I know it.”

I shook my head.

“That’s not the same as me knowing it.”

He went quiet.

I looked down at my hands.

“Every time I start trusting you again, something happens.”

His face tightened.

“The rejection. Sloane. The bond. Now this.”

“I know.”

“I still want you.”

That caught him off guard.

His eyes locked on mine.

“I’ve always wanted you. Even before I knew you were my mate.”

“Abby.”

“That isn’t the hard part.”

My throat tightened.

“Wanting you has never been hard.”

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He didn’t move.

“Trusting you is.”

Silence.

I couldn’t listen to another promise.

Not tonight.

“I need you to go.”

His face went still.

“Abby-”

“I need time.”

He hesitated.

“Please.”

That did it.

He nodded once.

“All right.”

Relief and hurt came together.

Kade turned toward the door.

His hand closed around the handle.

I thought he might say something else.

He didn’t.

He left.

The door clicked shut.

I stood there staring at it.

Then my knees gave out.

I sat on the edge of the bed and covered my face with both hands.

The first sob slipped out before I could stop it.

Then another.

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1:51 pm

Abby

Diana’s voice was soft

I shook my head.

I don’t know what to do.

Warmth spread through my chest as she pressed closer.

You don’t have to know yet.