Infinite Mana In The Apocalypse novel Chapter 5984

Chapter 5984: Choices, and Consequences I

THE Sumeru Elysium had no end that anyone had ever found. Somewhere inside one of its endless regions lay a domain with low grey hills and quiet roads lined with white flowers, and at its heart stood a white tower.

Beneath the white tower was a chamber that was always cool and always quiet and always smelled faintly of those same flowers growing in the stone channels around a clear tomb, and Phaedra had loved it as a child for exactly those reasons.

She did not love it tonight. She limped in through the tall doors with one hand pressed to her side and a thin dark line still running from her nostril and another from the corner of her eye, and every step on the pale stone cost her something, because the thread the farmer had planted in her was still pulling, patient and steady, taking a little more of her away with every breath.

She had walked the whole way home from the Carcosa with it, and in truth, she had not been certain she would arrive.

THE First Gu of Calamity was already there, of course. She stood at the head of the clear tomb in a long dark gown that never stirred when she moved, three Essara burning faintly beneath the skin of her chest, and she was changing a single white flower in the narrow vase at her husband’s head, as she had done every day for longer than Phaedra had been alive.

She set the fresh flower in place, turned it a little so that it faced his face, and only then looked up at the limping girl in the doorway.

"Report," she said. She did not raise her voice, and she did not ask Phaedra to sit.

So she reported, walking as she spoke, because the tomb lay at the far end of the chamber. She told it calmly and in order: the farm in the Carcosa and the line cut through the snow, the Shepherd’s and Psalm’s army on the eastern ridge, the Narrative that rose faster than they could break them, the golden things that climbed out of the others and the curse that turned Existence into craters, and the farmer’s name leaving the banner of Kings while the whole field watched.

Calamity listened without moving, one hand resting lightly on the edge of the tomb. It was a good report, Phaedra thought, as reports went. It was also the report of a defeat, and she could feel her stepmother weighing every word of it and finding the weight exactly what she had expected.

By the time she reached the tomb, her legs were shaking. She knelt beside it on the cold stone, and because she was tired and bleeding and had been raised in this chamber, she did something she had not done since she was very small.

Phaedra slid her hand beneath the edge of the lid, where the clear glass met the stone, and reached for her father’s hand.

Why now? Why, after all these Ages, should a grown woman with two Essara in her chest reach for a hand that had not moved since before she was born? She had no good answer, and she reached anyway.

And...

HUUM!

His fingers moved.

It was the smallest movement imaginable, two fingers closing gently around hers until her hand was caught lightly between them!

The thread in her chest drew taut one last time and then ended, pinched out quietly between his fingers, and the cold that had followed her all the way from the field left her all at once! She felt the farmer’s curse leave her completely and without ceremony, and for three breaths she let herself shake, and then she stopped.

Across the tomb, THE First Gu of Calamity had gone very still. She looked at her husband’s hand, and at Phaedra’s caught inside it, for a long moment, and something passed behind her calm face that Phaedra could not read and did not try to. Then it was gone. "Continue," Calamity said.

Phaedra continued, kneeling now, with her hand still held. She told her stepmother about the small blue-gold girl who had stood up out of the Hoe and spoken a name that THE Name Unspoken could not unsay.

Someone who somehow denied an Exalted Essara.

She told her that Thessaly had stayed behind at the end, kneeling over their little sister’s body while the last of the fighting burned around her, and had never followed her into the dark; Phaedra had not been able to reach her, and did not know whether she still lived.

"Lifthrasir is dead. At the very end, she turned her calamity on his farm. He crossed his own line to stop her. He took her very existence, and she lay down in the snow beside the giants, and she was gone."

She waited for it. Lifthrasir was Calamity’s own daughter, after all, and whatever else her stepmother was, she was the mother of the dead girl in the snow. On the long walk home, Phaedra had braced herself for rage: for the white Essara in that chest to wake, for the chamber to crack, for the cold and terrible fury of a First Gu who had lost a child to a farmer. She had half-hoped for it, if she was honest.

Rage would at least have meant that her sister had been worth something to someone in this house.

THE First Gu of Calamity adjusted the white flower in its vase, a very small adjustment, and said, "I see."

She looked down at her husband’s still face rather than at Phaedra. "I gave her an Essara carved at the Rim of the First Breaking, and a promise of Ichor, and a purpose, and she spent all three doing absolutely nothing. Even when I wanted to use that useless daughter of mine, she could not manage to do much."

She said it in the same even voice she had used to ask for the report. "It was wise of me not to try bringing her back the first time she died."

"You think I should weep for her. Weeping is for those who can afford it, Phaedra. I carry this house. I carry his work. Everything that was ever cruel in existence will end when he returns, and every child of this house was born to bring that day closer. She chose a warm corner and a farmer’s kindness over that. I do not hate her for it. I simply have no use for it." She turned the flower a final time. "Neither will existence, when the reset comes."

THE Dissolved Progenitor, it appeared, had been very busy in his time, and with a very great many partners.