Di Mingchen, "It’s alright, I’m used to it."
Di Mingjue, "Don’t you ever wish for someone to talk to, someone to lean on during those lonely nights? Someone to do some physical activities with? Don’t you wish for someone to bring you a cup of tea when you’re tired? To give you a massage? Don’t you wish for someone to cheer you up when you’re feeling down? Living alone is really tough!"
Di Mingchen remained silent, feeling a pang of pain in his heart. In truth, how could he not wish for those things?
But...
Although it’s a time of peace, many soldiers still die in the line of duty.
The main reason is that An Xin’s husband died, and at that time, An Xin seemed to be in her postpartum confinement, receiving the tragic news of her husband’s death.
That heart-wrenching grief, he truly couldn’t come to terms with it.
Perhaps it left a bit of a psychological shadow, so at that moment, he wondered what it would be like if it were him.
Later, he thought if it were him, it might be better not to bring harm to others.
You hold someone’s hand, have children, and if you die in the line of duty, leaving the woman you love most and your bloodline to barely survive in the world, it’s truly more cruel than anything else.
A woman, losing her husband, leaving behind a child, is a lifelong pain for the child. Can any other man treat the child the same way as their biological father would?
The woman you love ends up growing old alone with the child, or would she have to seek someone else?
So, it’s an issue no matter how you look at it.
Moreover, he is extremely busy, so busy that he always feels that marrying a wife but not being able to be with her often is an irresponsible act, leaving a sense of guilt towards the family.
He also sees many soldiers in the military district who, after marriage, return home only once every year or so, and those on the border sometimes don’t return for years.
So...
Second brother is somewhat like eldest brother, not in a timid way, nor because he’s afraid, but perhaps because he loves so deeply.
Having a crush on someone might just be superficial, wanting to be romantic with them, wanting to talk and cling every day.
But loving someone makes you consider more, consider everything, after all, life goes on, day after day, year after year.
This kind of love made him feel rather sad too, Di Mingjue silently sighed.
He only hoped that Nangong Ran could be the one who brings happiness to Di Mingchen.
Di Mingchen thought everything through, but Nangong Ran seemed carefree.
If one had to say, perhaps Nangong Ran merely liked Di Mingchen, while Di Mingchen had already fallen in love with her.
And deeply in love... not allowing a single bit of harm.

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