Love You Like I Used To Forget It (Millie Bridge) novel Chapter 358

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Chapter 358

If only.

If only Irvin had hurt me a little less. Then, I would’ve forgiven him and gotten back together with him without hesitation. That was how much I loved him and how much I desired to grow old with him.

However, time and time again, he had deeply stabbed me in the heart. So, despite my desire to love Irvin, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t bring myself to let go of that pain.

Irvin smiled softly at me when he spotted me stepping out,

“I’ll take you to the airport,” he offered.

Collecting my thoughts, I said, “No need. Didn’t we agree back them to avoid seeing each other as much as possible until you can fully drop the guise of being Timothy Hardwell?”

“Yes, and I will do my best to stay away from you. But today is an exception,” Irvin answered.

I couldn’t help feeling a flicker of irritation as I stared at him. I didn’t want to see him because I no longer wanted to feel conflicted toward him.

“I didn’t need you to fly all the way here from Lestoria just to send me to the airport,” I said.

“I didn’t come all this way just to send you to the airport, Emi. I came because today is the first snowfall, and we promised we would be together every year on this day,” Irvin clarified.

I was stunned. Then, I remembered our promise.

When we first started dating, we had heard of a romantic legend. Legend had it that if two lovers met on the day of the first snowfall, they would spend the rest of their lives together.

So, Irvin and I had made a vow–every year, we would spend the first snowfall together. That way, we would never be torn apart

in this lifetime.

At the time, Irvin had agreed to this with a smile. And every year, he had fulfilled this promise.

Even during the two years when he had tortured me because of Julianne, he had still accompanied me on the first day it snowed. And on that day, Julianne couldn’t call him away, regardless of what excuse she came up with.

That was why I had been hurting so much and couldn’t let go of Irvin completely.

It was also why I sometimes genuinely wished he had been a complete jerk–I wished he had never loved me from the start.

Because the more Irvin loved me, the more it hurt. And the more it did, the more I couldn’t understand how he could—how he

dared treat me like that.

Because no matter how much I hated him, I had never once thought about hurting him. Because if Irvin truly loved me, how could he bear to hurt me so deeply?

I stared at him—just stared as my eyes slowly welled with tears. And in that moment, he thought I was touched that he had remembered our old promise.

Overwhelmed with emotion, Irvin wanted to step forward and pull me into an embrace.

And just as he started to do so, I said, “Do you even know how I feel every time I see you? Every time I see you, I feel so miserable that I want to stab myself.”

Irvin’s outstretched arms froze midair, and the color drained from his face.

“Sometimes, I honestly think there’s something wrong with my head—that I deserve all this pain,” I continued, my voice breaking.

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“Otherwise, why couldn’t I stop myself from caving, despite how you’ve treated me? Why else would my heart ache for you? Do t literally have to hand you my life before I can feel peace?”

“Emi

Pale and shaken, Irvin tried to speak, but I didn’t allow him to,

Looking resentfully at him, I cut him off, “I just want to understand, Irvin, I really do. You keep claiming you love me, and you think you love me deeply. Yet, how could you hurt me like that? If you truly loved me, then tell me how could you do the things you did?

“How could you think I had spent three months in the hospital just to be dramatic, when you know how much I hated hospitals? How could your supposedly brilliant mind convince itself that I would be fine falling from a cliff of that height?”

My voice trembled as I continued, “Then, after everything–after the truth came out, how could you still protect Julianne? How could you still think about helping her? How could you still trade me for her when I had begged you so desperately to let me go? Even after I had frantically pleaded with you not to?

“Tell me, Irvin, I genuinely want to know–what exactly does true love look like to you?”

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