The more Mom thought about it these days, the more she realized that I was the only one in her entire life who had ever loved her without expecting anything in return.
And yet, I was also the one she had hurt the most.
Once she realized how unforgivable her past actions were, she understood that I would never forgive her. I would never treat her the way I used to, and there was nothing she could do to change that.
At first, Mom didn't want to do anything. She just wanted to quietly live out the rest of her life.
But just like everyone, the more she lost something and the more out of reach it is, the more she longed for it.
It kept her awake at night, tossing and turning, unable to sleep. Eventually, she began to feel she couldn't just sit back and do nothing.
She had to at least try.
So when Mom heard I was back, the first thing she did was make a pot of soup, hoping to take care of me.
She thought that no matter what, I would still somehow accept her gesture of kindness. She didn't expect me to react the way I did.
Seeing my cold attitude and remembering how warm I used to be, the huge contrast struck her and hurt even more.
But no matter what Mom said or did, I no longer listened. I had someone drag her out immediately.
When she was sent outside and the door slammed shut in her face, she was so overwhelmed that her legs nearly gave out.
Just as she was about to knock on the door and beg me for forgiveness, Jeremy arrived. He caught her hand and said, "Mom, don't make a scene here."
Seeing him, she clung to his arm like he was her last hope.
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