My Husband Chose His Ex I Became His Regret novel Chapter 46

Chapter 46

Chapter 46

Aidan

I have taken many calculated risks in my lifetime. However, kissing Lila Stark outside of her hotel room in Singapore is the first calculated risk I have taken where it feels like I am going off a cliff, and I do not know whether there is water at the bottom.

Her lips feel soft. Softer than I have ever thought they would feel. And I have thought about this, many more times than I ever should have, and in much more detail than I should have ever thought about it

I start out slow; hesitant. I am giving every chance possible for Lila to walk away from me. To tell me that this is wrong; to remind me that I am her boss and that this is crossing every boundary that we have both worked so hard to maintain for the last four months.

Lila and I are not pulling away from each other.

Her hands find their ways up my chest. There is a fistful of my shirt in her hand. She is pulling me closer to her body.

And I can feel something crack inside of me.

The control I have completely set up over the last four months, the distance I have maintained between us. the professional demeanor I have displayed, the act that she is only my employee, is all but destroyed.

I deepen the kiss by moving my hand from the cheek of her face to the back of her neck, my fingers weave through her hair. I move my other hand to her waist; pulling her body up against mine.

She makes a sound, it is a tiny gasp of shock but also an indication to me that she wants me

With that sound, my desire and need for her becomes too strong to resist, and I pick her up and walk backwards with her until she is up against her hotel door. My body caging hers. Not trapping Protecting Claiming.

She tastes like the dessert wine we shared at dinner. Sweet. Intoxicating. Addictive.

Her mouth opens with mine; I take full advantage of that ability. I kiss her more deeply With more torce I pour four months of longing into this moment. She has her hands in my hair pulling me down She’s making little desperate noises that are driving me wild.

I break the kiss. My mouth travels across her jaw down her neck to the pulse pomt that has driven me nuts for months and I taste it.

“Aidan…” she breathes my name like a prayer. Like a plea.

“Tell me to stop.” I kiss her below her ear and feel her body shudder. “If you say this is a mistake I’ll stop

“Don’t you stop.” She digs her nails into my shoulders. “Don’t you dare stop.”

I kiss her again, and this time more slowly. I want to savor and learn the way she tastes. I want to know how she reacts when I tease her bottom lip; how close she can get when I take my time and how tight she pulls me

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to her when I’m trying to pull back.

This is dangerous. This is insane. This is everything I shouldn’t be doing.

I don’t care.

My hand travels down her body along the curve of her hip. She’s wearing that emerald dress that has challenged my restraint for the entire evening. The dress that hugs her body in every possible way. The dress that makes her eyes appear to be made of pure liquid gold.

I want to rip it off of her and explore every bit of her body. I want her to say my name in ways other than business.

But we are in a hotel hallway and even though every part of me is screaming to give in, I still have some control.

Very little. But still some.

So I pull away.I place my forehead against hers. Our breaths are heavy.

“I was thinking maybe we should…” I say at the same time she cuts me off saying

“Don’t say we should stop,” she interrupts. “Don’t tell me this was a mistake.”

“I was going to say that we should go inside… before someone sees us out here” as I look at her and watch her eyes go wide with realization. She quickly adjusts to the reality as she says “yes” and then she drops her key card trying to get it out of her bag.

I catch it before it hits the floor. My hand is steadier than it should be given that I just destroyed four months of professional distance with one kiss.

1 swipe the card. The door unlocks.

And I freeze.

Because if I go inside that room with her, if I cross that threshold, there’s no coming back from this No pretending it didn’t happen. No maintaining the professional relationship we’ve built

Everything changes.

Lila is looking at me and I know she can see my hesitation

“Aidan?”

“If I walk through that door, I will not want to leave. I will not be able to keep our professional distance and I will not be able to pretend this is….”

Then suddenly, she steps closer and lays her hand over my heart, “Don’t pretend, don’t maintain your distance, just be here with me.”

All I can think about is how badly I want to take off that emerald dress, and see it there is more of her

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“I don’t know.” The admission costs me. “I’ve spent four months trying not to want you. Trying to maintain boundaries. Trying to convince myself this was just business. And I’ve failed spectacularly.”

“So what do we do?”

“We wait.” I press a kiss to her forehead. Soft. Tender. Everything the kiss before wasn’t. “We finish this trip. We close this deal. And then we figure out what this is. What we are. Without the pressure of being in a foreign country with professional obligations.”

“You’re really going to make me wait four more days?”

“I’m really going to make us both wait four more days.” I step back fully. Creating distance before I lose my resolve. “Because you deserve better than a heat-of-the-moment decision. You deserve to be chosen. Deliberately.”

She looks at me for a long moment. Then smiles. Small. Genuine. “You’re surprisingly romantic for a ruthless CEO.”

“Don’t tell anyone. It’ll ruin my reputation.”

“Your secret’s safe with me.” She touches her lips. Still swollen from kissing. “Goodnight, Aidan.”

“Goodnight, Lila.”

The elevator reaches the 41st floor and I walk into my suite. I let myself in and stand in this enormous empty space. I pour myself a glass of scotch and stand at the window, looking out at Singapore twinkling below.

Four months of careful professional distance. Four months of pretending she was just an employee. Four months of lying to myself. Destroyed by one kiss.

I touch my lips, still able to taste her on me and feel the way she responded to me; pulling me in rather than pushing me away.

She wanted me as much as I want her.

I kissed her. Finally kissed her after months of wanting to. And instead of following through, instead of taking what she was clearly offering, I walked away.

Because I’m an idiot. A noble idiot, but an idiot nonetheless.

My phone buzzes with a text message from Lila:

-For the record. I wanted to be with you tonight.

I stare at the text message, read it three times and then:

A: four days. Then everything changes.

Her response is immediate:

L: Promise?

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