Mordret felt relieved because no matter how thoroughly he had deluded himself, deep down, he always understood what kind of monster the Dreamspawn was, and what kind of future awaited him if he stayed by Asterion’s side.
Instead of regret, he eventually found himself full of quiet hope, anticipation, and timid excitement. He tried to repress these feelings, not wishing to be hurt all over again... but in the end, they refused to be extinguished and slowly grew to conquer his heart.
Mordret thought that since his time with Asterion had come to an end, and the deal his father had struck with Asterion was complete, he could return home... to Valor. He imagined being welcomed with open arms, enjoying the affection of his true family, and finally being in a place where he truly belonged.
After all, he was the Prince of War. He had conquered the First Nightmare at the tender age of twelve and emerged from its jaws as a master of a Divine Aspect. Certainly, his father, the King, could not wish for a more worthy heir... and, therefore, the future was bright.
Reality, of course, shattered his naive optimism completely.
It didn't take Mordret long to realize that he was not welcome in the Great Clan Valor. His father, who had disliked him before, now treated him with open contempt. The elders of the clan and the members of the branch families were wary of him and knew that he was not favored by the king. The retainers of the clan found him eerie, and preferred to stay away.
Soon, Mordret swiftly became an outcast in the royal court. He was not the proud heir of Clan Valor or the Prince of War. He was barely a prince, really...
At best, he was the prince of nothing. Having been rejected for the third time in his short life, Mordret finally understood that he would never belong anywhere. It was not because of how he acted, how he behaved, or because he did not try enough and went about trying in the wrong way. It was simply due to his nature.
His nature was not like that of other people, and people despised nothing more than those who were other.
So, for the first time, Mordret abandoned his desire to be accepted and acknowledged — by his father, by Asterion, or by anyone else. Rejecting the notion of relying on others and having imprisoned his seventh self in the Great Mirror, he drifted through his days aimless and alone.
He reflected the world back on itself and became just as cruel, indifferent, and callous. Eventually, he imagined that he wanted to become just as strong, as well... strong enough to be self-sufficient and never have to depend on anyone. To be beholden to no one.
Only to himself.



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