Supreme Magus novel Chapter 4103

Chapter 4103: Enemy Within (Part 2)

"I don’t want that choice at all, but it might present itself. So, I need you to think long and hard about this and then give me your answer. In the meantime, I’ll do everything I can to solve the problem on my side, or at least devise a suitable birth control spell.

"If neither is possible, I won’t Awaken you. I won’t risk your life or safety on a gamble. I’ve done many bad things as a mage, but I’d rather die than let anything bad happen to you because of me."

A tense silence fell over the room.

The Master never averted his gaze, and Zinya never stopped mulling over his warnings.

"Thanks, Zogar." She said after a few minutes that felt like centuries. "Thank you for worrying so much about me. You’re right. I needed to know those things, and I take back my answer. I need time to think."

"A wise choice." He nodded. "I won’t resent you if you want to move to the guestroom until then. You need time and space."

"Zogar!" Zinya said in outrage. "How can you suggest that?"

"Let’s be real." He shrugged. "I can’t give you what you want, and I probably won’t be able to until it’s too late. Awakening or not, you are not getting any younger, and it would be egotistical of me to ask you to give up on your dream of becoming a mother."

Zinya was too stunned to reply, but the Master took her silence for his cue to continue.

"Don’t worry, you and the kids can stay here for as long as you want. If you decide to leave, Tezka will follow you. Just because things didn’t work out between us, I won’t let the children-"

"Zogar, are you listening to yourself?" Zinya couldn’t take it anymore, so she grabbed him by the shoulders and cut him short. "How can you talk as if it’s already over? How can you plan your future without us so coldly?"

"Because I know how much you are suffering, Zin, and I’m offering you a solution." The Master replied in the same tone he would use for small talk. "As I said, I can’t give you what you want, and it’s only a matter of time before you get tired of pretending that you’re happy."

Those words hit her like a slap to the face. Not only because they meant that her constant efforts to hide her distress had been for nothing, but also because they struck a nerve that tormented her for a while now.

"You can’t give me what I want?" She asked. "What about me not being able to give you what you want? You never asked anything of me, but I know that your only wish is for me and the kids to be happy.

"Your wish is so simple, yet I can’t even do that right. Back when I was blind, I wanted the strength to leave Fallmug, and you gave it to me. After I gained sight, I wanted my children back, and you gave them to me.

"Then, you helped me invest my assets so that they generated enough annuities to allow me to live without working while I recovered. You’ve saved my children’s lives and mine time and time again.

"Since you married me, you’ve given us everything we dreamed and even things we didn’t even dare dream about. You give, give, give, and yet I keep wanting more. I’m never happy, and I always make you worry.

"I already knew I was a greedy, egotistical person, but after hearing you talk like this, I realized I was wrong. I’m a monster, Zogar." Zinya started to sob. "I’m so sorry for hurting you. For making you feel like nothing you do is ever enough.

"You did everything right, Zogar. I’m the problem. There must be something wrong with me."

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