Tempting The Mafia Twins (Genesis and Kiefer) novel Chapter 84

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“That I watched you. Kiefer left you as my guard more often than not and there were so many times, I wanted to slip my hand into yours, but it was wrong. I couldn’t covet my husband’s brother, so I pushed those thoughts away. I forced myself to focus on anything but you when you were in the room but Tadgh, I,” she wiped a tear off her cheek as she gave a laugh at her silliness, “I thought I was a bad wife. Women who marry twins don’t want to kiss their husband’s twin to see if they kiss the same, they don’t want to see them naked to see if they’re built the same, they don’t dream of being in bed with their brother–in–law to see how they compare sexually. I was a bad wife.”

“Genesis.” Tadgh’s voice was hoarse.

“A part of me thought the things the girls were doing to me was deserved because I was a bad wife. I’d never not wanted Kiefer.

I wanted him. I loved him. God, I loved him so much I ached

for him all the time but,” she held his gaze, feeling braver than she truly was, “I wanted you. I thought you hated me because you knew I was watching you. If you would have given me an ounce of attention, especially during the last three months when Kiefer was never around, I would have given in without a second thought. I thought you hated me because you knew I’d cheat on Kiefer with you, and you love your brother so much. I thought it was why you stayed away, because I wasn’t good enough for him since I was fickle.”

“Oh Genesis.” He held his arms out and tugged her, so she was sitting in his lap, and he rocked her against his chest. “The pair of us are fools, no?”

“Are we?”

“Yes. Actually, the three of us were fools. We were all blinded to the things we needed, all wrapped up in our thoughts of what was right, proper, and expected.”

“If you could go back in time, what would you do?”

“I’d go into that bathroom in the pub and while Kiefer fucked you in the bathroom stall, I’d have made him change positions, take you from behind and got you to blow me. Then I’d have switched with him. Then we would have taken you home together. Then we would have both followed you to Boston and eventually, he would have married you legally, but I would have married you spiritually.”

“You would have wanted to marry me too?”

“I still do.” He didn’t back away from her question as he lifted her hand to his lips. “I’d like to put my ring here, Genesis. I’d like for Kiefer and me to get bands which interlock.” He gave a smile, “it’s driving Kiefer nuts you’re not wearing your rings.”

She gave a shrug. “They’re in my bags. I always said I needed them in case I was forced to pawn them for cash.”

“You wouldn’t have sold them.”

“No.”

He chuckled, “I’m sorry Genesis. For the past and for my role in it, I am so sorry.”

“I know.” She kissed his cheek. She held up her sandwich. “Are we eating with me on your lap?”

“Yes please. I want you close, if its, okay?”

“It’s okay.” She snuggled into his embrace as she took a bite of the crusty sandwich. Her eyes met his delightedly, “chicken salad.”

“With Swiss cheese, exactly how you used to like them.”

“How is still so cold?”

“Had the guys bring the picnic basket up from the fridge in the canteen while you were in the shower. I packed everything myself and set this all up but the food and the wine I asked them to bring up when I brought your clothes to you.”

He grinned, “yeah?”

“It’s like busking for busses.”

He laughed at her words as he strummed the guitar again.

Genesis was surprised when he started singing along with the guitar. She knew it was a country tune, aware it was his favorite kind of music and as she listened to him pour himself into the lyrics, she was in awe of the passion.

To you, I’m just a man, to me, you’re all I am

Where the hell am I supposed to go?

I poisoned myself again, somethin‘ in the orange

Tells me you’re never comin‘ home

She was dumbstruck at how, despite the Irish accent she usually heard in his voice, it took on a southern drawl as he pulled the lyrics from deep in his chest. When the song drew to a close, she held her hand against her pounding chest and blinked real tears away.

“I think Daddy and I need to have a real conversation about smashing the dreams of a teenage boy, Tadgh. You’re extraordinarily talented. Incredible. Will you sing me another?”

“Payment first,” his cheeks were stained red as she praised him, but he played it off playfully and pursed his lips.

Crossing the blanket on her knees she cupped his cheeks in her palms and kissed his lips softly. “I’d kiss you a million times to hear you sing me songs. I’m learning so much about you tonight, Tadgh. Thank you for not giving up on me, on us.”

His blush turned his whole face red as he cleared his throat and started strumming another tune. Genesis decided this might be the best foreplay she ever engaged in.