Sonia felt like she was asleep for a long time again. When she woke up, she saw Dixon's tired face.
Noticing her awakening, Dixon also woke up. Sonia grabbed his hand and murmured with tears, "Dixon... Dixon..."
Dixon thought she had recovered her memory. However, she was just in a nightmare. After she really woke up, she looked at Dixon with blank eyes. She became Sonia without any connection with the past again. She let go of her grip on Dixon's hand and fell back onto the pillow.
After a while, Sonia suddenly burst into tears.
She cried intermittently. Obviously, she was holding back her voice. But she couldn't. She couldn't hold back this sorrow.
She choked, "I don't know why. I just feel so aggravated..."
"I've suffered a lot... I probably suffered in the past... and I am still suffering now... In my life, what will it take to spare me?"
Sonia closed her eyes, "Do I have to let all my blood bleed... Who is hiding around me? Mr. Borris, can you tell me?"
Mr. Borris. The way she called him made him come back to reality.
Looking at Sonia's emotional breakdown, Dixon could only reassure her, "It's okay, you've gotten out of the Jungle Group. You won't be taken back again..."
"The Jungle Group..."
Sonia mumbled unconsciously, "Carl's still in there..."
Dixon sighed. She had suffered too much stimulation for a while. Her spirit couldn't hold up. If she continued like this, he was afraid Sonia would go crazy.
It was not the same crazy that fell into despair as before. After going through those continuous dangerous attacks, she must have a tense string in her mind. Those suffering made it tighter and tighter. And when the last blow came, the string would break. And all her consciousness would go blank.
Sonia has suffered too much in her life now. Leaving aside the five torturous years of imprisonment, how should she bear any suffering now?
Dixon was really afraid that one day he woke up and found Sonia going crazy, not recognizing anyone, not even him.
"Where is Victor, where is Victor?" Sonia looked at Dixon in a panic, "Is my son okay?"
Halfway through the sentence, she froze sharply. Then she tried again in a soft voice, "That's also... Your... Son, right?"
Dixon almost felt the urge to shed tears when faced with Sonia's cautiousness at this moment.
She was once so proud and noble, but now she has turned into such a wretched state.
She could not remember the past, could not see the future, and was surrounded by crises. Yet no one was her backbone.
Dixon thought that Sonia's life was too hard. She had gone through so many trials and tribulations, but she could never get to the shore.
Sonia held herself and fell into a depressed mood, as if she was back in prison. She curled herself into a ball. And her thin body made him feel unbearable. She hugged herself and murmured softly, "It's okay... It's okay..."
Nothing would happen, nothing would happen to her again...
Her mental state couldn't take any more damage.
Sonia just wrapped herself into a cocoon. And she even refused to let anyone into her heart.
Lenard put the cigarette out of light, "Not letting her remember, not letting her talk to others, and not letting her have contact with anyone is the most basic defensive state."
Dixon's eyes were a little red, "What exactly does it take to... to make her get better?"
"She's in a very dangerous state right now. She can't take any more stimulation." Lenard sighed, "Dixon, the sins you created in the first place have done serious harm to her. And after you, other people's harm to her is the last straw that crushed her. Sonia's mental world is likely to collapse in this way."
In other words, she was likely to be so depressed and self-absorbed from now on, shutting her heart away and not letting anyone in.
Staring at Dixon's face, Lenard said, "If you want to ruin her, you won't get your purpose even if she dies. To let her live as a dead person is a real way to destroy her."
Dixon was stunned on the spot like being stroked by lightning. He was the source of all the sins and harms. He was the original sin.
He was the original sin that completely destroyed Sonia.
"Do you know why depressed people make others feel dangerous?"
Lenard reached out and pointed to his chest, "Because their spiritual mind loses its normal function. Because their hearts are sick. They are disconnected from the world in this way, as if they are separated from us by a transparent, but huge barrier. All emotions cannot be conveyed. They can only feel sadness, day in and day out."
Dixon felt a million arrows in his heart just listening to it.
"At that point, life and death are no longer things that stop them. Because it makes no difference to them whether they live or die. People living in this world always have a million reasons to live on their lives. But with Sonia's condition, it's obviously terrible. Because she doesn't have any reason anymore. That is, she has no connection to this world."
"Then..." Lenard seemed to see in Dixon's eyes that the whole world was slowly collapsing splendidly. He felt a little intolerant and said softly, "She would be in a state that she could have died at any time."
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