One More Chance novel Chapter 124

~~~How I wish that I could tell you it's all in the past, but I was never good at lying. If I held you in my arms you know I'll never let you go, but this ain't the time and place to get emotional. I don't want to hear that song again from the night we first met. I don't want to hear you whispering things I'd rather forget. I don't want to look into your eyes 'cause you know what happens next, we'll be making love and then, I'd fall all over again~~~

-Dan Hill-

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"I'm sorry, Sam, I wish I could bring back the past and changed what I did, but I couldn't."

And suddenly a bitter laugh escaped my lips as I remembered it was the same phrase I muttered to myself the time I found out I was pregnant.

"Do you know what's funny about what you said? I already mentioned that line a few years ago when I found out I was pregnant and you were pushing me away because you said the baby inside me was only created by mistake and that time, I wished to turn the hands of time and change the mistake I made, but the same as yours, I couldn't." I said shaking my head.

And we were enveloped in a sudden silence, but it was he who opened his mouth first.

"Sam, can't you give another chance--- even one last chance?"

He tried to take my hand again that was resting on the table, but I was quick to pull it away. Shock and pain immediately registered in his eyes, but I ignored it and avoided his gaze by wiping away my tears.

"Do we really have no chance?"

"Luke,"

"I will be a better man, a better husband---"

"You already said that."

"I will be a better father to Cali---"

"I have no questions about you being a good father to our daughter, Luke because I know you have been. You became a good father to Cali, but that's not the problem and I know it will never be a problem even in the future, it's you being a husband."

"That's why I'm asking for a second chance, a last chance. Please, love me again, Sam?" He pleaded, his eyes full of unshed tears.

"I can't. " I shook my head, biting my bottom lip to stop it from quivering. "I can't, Luke."

I stared at him in tears and that was the time he let his tears flow down his cheeks. He lowered his head as he wiped his face with his palm.

"Sam..." He uttered when he looked at me and when I shook my head again, he closed his eyes tightly.

"I'm begging you, Luke, to set me free. I'm not begging you to free yourself from being a father to Cali, but I'm begging you to let me go. Let me be myself again."

But he said nothing, instead, he avoided my gaze and continued to wipe away his tears.

"You know what, seeing you like that makes me want to try. I really wanted to try again, Luke. I wanted to love you again, I mean, I wanted to be with you again and be a whole family, you, me and Cali, but..."

I paused to swallow the lump in my throat while he waited for my next words.

"But every time I try, the memories instantly rushing back to my head and it gives me a painful headache that invades me even in my sleep. Believe me, I really wanted to love you again, I wanted to hug you, but what you did in the past holds me back from doing it."

"Sam..."

"I've already forgiven you if that's one of the things you were thinking about."

And when he didn't say anything again, I opened my bag and took the brown envelope. He watched me take the papers out of the envelope and looked at me with a silent plea in his eyes.

"Please, Luke, it's the only thing I can ask you after so many years and I promise this will be the last," I said placing the divorce papers in front of him.

"I-I can't, Samantha." He shook his head. He didn't even read the papers. "I can't let you go."

Taking a deep breath, I wiped my tears and stood up.