~~~If you take me wherever you go, I wanna learn the things that you know. Now that you made me believe, I want you to take me 'cause I long to be able to see the things that you see. Know that whatever you do, I'll follow you...~~~
-Toni G.-
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"Are you sure about this, Sam?"
This has been Jack's question for the fifth time since I told her about the wedding next week. It's Saturday today and I invited her to come to be able to share my thoughts with my best friend. And even though she refused it at first... ( well, you already know the reason )... but when I told her that Dale isn't at home and that he's having a practice for their finals, I didn't wait an hour and she has already appeared right in front of our house.
"As if I still have a choice, Jack." I sighed, taking the leftover pizza from the oven and went back to the long wooden table.
"Of course, you have! You can simply tell them that you don't want to get married to him." She followed behind me with a pitcher of orange juice in her hands.
"I did it and you know what?"
"What?"
"They didn't listen!" I took the first bite of my pepperoni pizza.
"Hmm..." She raised an eyebrow, placing the glass of juice in front of me and occupied the seat next to me. "Why don't you run away? I'll help you."
"Are you serious?"
"Of course, I am! I know a place where you can escape and--- ouch!" she didn't get the chance to continue what she was saying as I hit her arm.
"Haist, Jackeline, you're not helping!"
"Well, I'm just trying to find a better solution so you can escape the wedding!" She shrugged.
"Haha... a better solution?" I repeat with a sarcastic laugh. "I can't do that. I'm pregnant and I don't want to make another mistake, because Luke will certainly not be able to forgive me if I do."
"Ohh... so that's it! You don't want to think of any other solution because the truth is that you don't really want to stop the wedding, am I right?"
"Jack..."
"Okay, you don't need to answer, I got it."
I sighed, biting my lower lip.
"Sam, just a piece of advice, entering into a one-sided relationship or marriage is difficult because dreaming of someone you love, yet you can never have is a nightmare itself. What I fear most is that if he really does what he said and he will make you pay for every single day while his name is being tied with yours."
"Don't worry about it, Jack, I'm ready for the consequences of what I did, besides, I have his child. I can do everything--- anything and even if it includes living in hell while living with him, it's fine as long as my child grows up with a father."
"Oh, goodness, Samantha! Where are you from--- 14th century? You don't have to be with the man who doesn't know your worth just to make your dream of having a complete family come true!"
"Come on, Jack, we're not yet married, you're overreacting. What if because of this baby he'll eventually learn to accept me and appreciate me? I'm still not losing hope."
"Huh!" She sneered, shaking her head. "Tsk.tsk.tsk... you're hopeless." then she rolled her eyes before taking the last piece of pizza from the plate.
Yeah... 'you're hopeless'... that's exactly the same word Luke had told me. But since I'm having his child, he's wrong. They're all wrong because this baby is the only hope--- no, the right word would be 'my new found hope' that I will hold on to no matter what happens.
Maybe for them, I am the most stupid, foolish, insane--- whatever they can call it for making such a stupid mistake, but I promise not to be that person in my baby's eyes. I will be a good mother like the way my mom did while raising me.
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"Congratulations, Sam." Luke's mother or should I say my mother-in-law starting today greeted me as soon as we entered the wedding reception.
"Thanks, Lilian," I said giving her a smile that didn't even reach my eyes. Luke is nowhere to be found after receiving a call and I didn't have to ask who the caller was based on his subdued expression. "Oh, come on, just call me mom, sweetie. You're now my daughter-in-law."
"Yeah, I'm sorry."
"It's okay, anyway, where is your husband? I haven't seen him around since you two came from the church."
I silently pulled my breath. How am I supposed to answer her question? That his son left his wife on the day of their wedding just to be with his girlfriend? Or how am I supposed to tell her that his 'unico yho' isn't breaking up with his girlfriend yet, that he's still seeing her and exchanging phone calls with her?
"H-He's just receiving a call." and I smiled.
"I see. Well, just call me if you need help entertaining your guests, okay?"
"Yeah, thanks, Lilia--- I mean, Mom."
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