One More Chance novel Chapter 180

"I just don't want you to get worried,"

"I can't believe you," I said in a retreating tone and let out a sigh as I wiped my face with my hands. "So Lucy's effort to tell me the truth is useless,"

"So it was Lucy!" he said in surprise but I ignored him.

"I thought when I come to see and talk to you I will hear a proper explanation and an apology for lying once again," Hurt and disappointment laced in my voice.

"Sweetheart---"

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have exerted an effort to come here and worried for nothing because it's sad to say you had no intention of telling me the truth."

And for that, I decided to leave him and ran fast to the open door.

"Samantha, wait!"

I just stopped when I reached the living room and turned to face him.

"Sam..."

"Do you know how scared I was while Lucy was telling me you almost lost your life? Do you know how much guilt I felt after hearing all these things and realizing how I accused you of doing something behind my back? And do you even know how my whole body trembled while I was waiting for the elevator to stop on your floor?" Another set of tears started running down my face and it was now difficult to stop them because of the painful sobs that simultaneously escaped my throat.

"Sweetheart, I---"

"I was so scared!" I cut him off, yelling. I can see through his eyes how much he wanted to touch me but he couldn't. "And it was the second time I've been scared in my life. The first was when I almost had a miscarriage and lost Cali and the second was earlier when Lucy told me what happened to you! Do I really have the right to worry about you?"

"Of course, you have---"

"Then why did you hide the truth?"

"What if something happened to you? What if it was... it was something worse? What if... what if we never had the chance to see you and... and... argh! Luke---"

I screamed his name but that was all I could scream as I didn't have the chance to continue as quickly invaded the remaining space between us and pulled me into a hug.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, sweetheart, I didn't think about what you feel," he said as he peppered kisses all over my hair and neck.

"What are you doing? Let me go!" I tried to push him but it was no use as he was strong and he just even pulled me closer to him.

"I'm sorry, that time I was scared too. I wanted to call you, I wanted to tell you but I can't because I was more scared to see you crying and worried every time I had to go to a business meeting or represent a new project out of town."

At that time, I stopped struggling in his arms, but I still couldn't bring my hands to hug him.

"I missed you. I missed you every fu**king day. I missed Cali, I missed your smile, your kisses, your hugs--- everything! I miss you so much, Sam, I'm sorry, I love you,"

And that's what made me lose my strength and inhibitions. I finally found my hands wrapped around his waist as I began to cry and tremble in his arms.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," he whispered, repeatedly kissing me on the side of my head. He even began to stroke my back and the length of my hair.

"You let me doubt you and accused you of wrong things just to keep this to me,"

"I know it's my fault and I'm sorry,"

"Don't do it again!" I said hitting his back.

He held my shoulders and made me look at him after breaking our embrace.

"I was scared to death when I found out but I was more hurt when I learned you purposely hid it from me. I felt so useless---"

"No, sweetheart, don't ever think about it that way!"

"But it's true---"

"No! Shhh! That's not true! It was my decision not to tell you so it was my fault, okay?" He wrapped me in his arms again but then a few seconds later... "Stop crying,"

"I can't!" I pouted but he just smiled and wiped my cheeks using his thumb.

"Did you miss me?" he asked after a while.

I stared at him but didn't respond. Deep within my heart, that question shouldn't be asked anymore.

"Do you miss me?" he asked me again but when I remained silent, he cupped both my cheeks and made me look at him. "Hey, why aren't you talking? Do you miss me?"