One More Chance novel Chapter 45

~~~I can't believe what I just heard, could it be true? And were you ever what you seemed or was I a fool who fell in love with my own dream? How do you heal a broken heart that feels like it will never beat this much again? Oh, no, I just can't let go. How do you heal a broken heart like it will never love this much again? Oh, no, tonight I'll hold what could be right, tomorrow I'll pretend to let you go~~~

-Chris Walker-

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"Why didn't you go to them?" Jack's question when we find a bench to sit on.

I remained silent, looking at the San Francisco skyline that seemed to be proud standing and pointing above the now brilliantly red and orange sky. Their lights began to blink and shine through the blue water under the Golden Gate Bridge of San Fransico.

My tears have already stopped falling, but the pain still exists. How I wish to become a child again, that anyone would give me a piece of candy, the pain would easily vanish... and when the tears stop falling, my simple and childish problems stop as well.

"Why didn't you show up in front of them? Why did you just run? Why didn't you talk to them and give your scumbag-jerk-cheater of a husband a powerful kick on his ass and his mistress a stinging slap?"

I glanced at her slowly and then sighed.

"I wish I could..." I shook my head. "...but I couldn't. I can't."

"Why not? You are his wife, I mean his legal wife and Cherry was just his mistress, his number two, his fucking slut!"

I closed my eyes tightly upon hearing that name.

"She's not just his slut." I weakly said.

"And she's his what?"

"She's the love of his life. For him, she is his everything."

"Jesus Christ, Samantha! What the hell is going on with you? Are you just going to sit there and do nothing while they were happy, playing romantically as if they were mice that suddenly broke free from their cage?"

My head snapped towards her.

"What do you want me to do, Jack, to start a fight? You want me to introduce myself in front of him and ask him 'hey, my dear husband, what are you doing? Why are you kissing her? Are you cheating on me?' or do you want me to throw all the drinks on their faces or smash the glass on the floor?' Are those the things you want me to do?"

"Yes! Those are exactly the things I want you to do and I would be happy if you could do more, instead of sitting here, crying like a baby because someone took her candy! I want you to show them that you are strong! That you are his wife! That even if you are just his plain housewife, he shouldn't have treated you as if you were 'nothing' and that he shouldn't cheat on you! Samantha, grow up! Have a fucking bones even just for once!"

I gritted my teeth as I couldn't help the tears to form in my eyes again. I felt hurt by what she said, that I was just a plain housewife who had no bones to stand on my own.

"Do you think that if I do that, the truth will change? Will it erase the scene that has already been registered in my head?..."

I stopped as I was choked by my own sobs.

"...Will it change what happened and return my husband to me? Will it change the painful truth that he never learned to love me? Will they, Jack?"

"No, nothing of what you said will change and I'm not telling you to fight for him, but it's your right to do all those things..."

She paused for a few seconds and I waited for her next words.

"...even cut his balls!"

A slight chuckle left my lips when I looked at her. I was crying and smiling at the same time.

"I-I don't know where to start again, Jack, and you know what it hurts me the most?"