One More Chance novel Chapter 79

~~~Now I know you're sorry. And we were sweet, but you chose lust when you deceived me. And you'll regret it, but it's too late. How can I ever trust you again? I feel like our world's been infected, and somehow you left me neglected. We've found our life's been changed. Oh, babe, you lost me~~~

-Christina Aguilera-

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My heart pounded faster the moment I stepped out of the kitchen and even when I reached my room. It was an intense conversation that I never expected nor even thought would happen this morning.

"Ahh!" I sighed loudly, still catching my breath as I closed the door behind me. Brushing my hair, I walked over to the bed and slumped my body, facing the ceiling. I don't know but it felt like all my energy was drained. "I just did the right thing," I muttered, closing my eyes.

I kept repeating those words until I felt my heart calm down inside my ribcage.

I still have a lot of things to tell him but only those words came out of my mouth. And seconds later, a bitter smile curled against my lips as I remembered the look on his face when he told me he was sorry for letting me go. Sorry... the word he refused to give me, which I swear, if I just heard it four years ago, I'm pretty sure I would have jumped on the floor and ran into his arms or maybe I wouldn't have waited for his next words and screamed in excitement. I would also have screamed how much I loved him.

But earlier was different.

I couldn't explain exactly how I felt when he looked at me and asked for forgiveness. It seemed like all the pain I felt four years ago came back and taunted me again at that moment.

-'Yes, I said I love this family, but I never said I love you...'-

Those were the exact words I heard from him. He has no idea how those words affected me. It broke my heart and my sanity, but somehow it made me realized the truth.

Letting out a deep sigh, I opened my eyes and blinked several times, trying to ward off the tears that suddenly formed around them.

I couldn't easily give him the forgiveness he was asking me for. Even though I told him I can casually talk to him, but that's just it. My heart suffered too much for those years with him and it's not easy to forgive.

I know its impossible to avoid him as he is my daughter's father and Cali needs both of her parents, so even if I want to lock myself in my room every time he visits her, I can't.  We need to be on our daughter's side.

But now that I've finally shown him his place, maybe now I can start acting normally. I already have David and he has Cherry, so there's no reason for me to feel awkward

when he's here.

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LUKE'S POV:

I sighed as I took off my eyeglasses and leaned against my seat. I can't focus on the report that has been stuck on my computer screen for almost 30 minutes as my mind was still drifting on what happened this morning when I get Cali's phone. Sam's words still linger in my head and I admit, I was stunned and hurt at the same time when she thanked me for letting her go.