One More Chance novel Chapter 83

~~~I had it all but I let it slip away. Couldn't see that I treated you wrong. Now I want around feeling down and cold, trying to believe that you're gone. Love takes time to heal when you're hurting so much. Couldn't see that I was blind to let you go. I can't escape the pain inside, cause love takes time. I don't wanna be here alone~~~

-Mariah Carey-

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SAM'S pov:

Everything went back to normal after that morning. Well, that's how I think of these last few days Luke has been visiting Cali, I just don't know and I'm not sure if the people around me feel the same way ... or maybe I was just good at pretending.

Although I still feel a little awkward talking to him, I have to stand to what I said... we can never be friends nor back to being friends as we have never become one even before and he has never given me the chance to do so.

There were times when I looked at him, some sad and painful moments from the past came back to me and still hit me. And even though I tried to shake those memories off, I failed as it seemed like a fire burning my sanity.

It's been four years... yes... it's been four years since I left including those memories and everything behind, but it still gives me chills. I know that the feeling I had for him had already vanished a long time ago, but what he did still taunting me at this very moment and maybe that's the reason why I still couldn't find forgiveness for him.

And it's been a month since that 'morning incident' happened and I've seen---I've witnessed how things have changed between us.

He still visits his daughter regularly and there have been times when he came to the house that I was in the living room and it would be too late to avoid him as he already saw me, so I have no choice but to talk to him instead.

 My mom always giving me a thumbs-up every time she sees me talking to him, but little did she know that Jack's reaction was opposite of hers as my best friend's face couldn't be painted. But of course, for the sake of Cali, she never opened her mouth and instead gave us space and time to talk to each other.

She and Paul continued seeing each other, but when my brother found out about their so-called 'friendly date', he started annoying her again to the point that he goes to work late just to see if Paul would visit her at home. And what shocked me the most was when I heard him talking to someone on the phone and asking him to watch Paul's every move.

I asked him about it but the only response he gave me was that he was just worried about my best friend. And as usual, I laughed at him when I heard his answer. Since when did he start worrying about someone else, especially my best friend? But he didn't give me the chance to know the reason as he already left me that day.

I decided not to tell Jack about what I heard because I know, for sure, she wouldn't believe me. She would only laugh and would say 'Nah! That's impossible!'

And as for my boyfriend, he still hasn't been able to give me the exact date when to visit me in San Fransisco, but I understand him as the situation of being a doctor isn't that easy. But even though he was that busy, he never failed to call me every night or every end of his duty. He even contacted one of the famous flower shops in San Francisco just to deliver a bouquet every Sunday morning.

I haven't told him about Luke yet. The conversation we had and our agreement as parents to our daughter. David knew everything about my past. I didn't leave any information and told him everything. And that's one of the things I love about him, he understands me and everything I've been through. He always listens and has never judged me for my past.

For me, he's the ideal man I've been looking for all my life. The husband material, every woman man.

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"Mommy..."

"Hmm?" I opened my eyes slightly only to see my daughter on the side of the bed, sulking as she stared at me. "Hi, baby, good morning."

"Mommy, you promised me we're going to the park today and to your favourite coffee shop near Auntie Jack's apartment."

"Ohh..." I couldn't help but tap my forehead because I'd already forgotten that promise. "Yeah, mommy's just going to take a bath, okay?" I got up and smiled at her.