Pleasuring the Maid novel Chapter 6

" stop! ' Ray pulled back, pushing me slightly in the process.

He didn't kiss me back, he didn't want to. Oh no, what did I really expect, that things were different now? that he was a changed man? Honestly the word stop hurt me so much, the rejection stirred an unexplainable feeling deep down.

To worsen it all, he wasn't even looking at me, he was staring right ahead, his face blank of any emotions. Could he not at least look at me even for one second. 

Was I that ugly for him to look at me. That pang in my chest grew brewing tears inside my stinging  eyes. With a single blink of my eyes, the clear salty liquid flowed freely, rolling down on my cheeks.

How could I forget I was just a maid and he was the son of my boss? For goddess sake, to him I was disgusting, to him I was nothing, to him I was just a useless good for nothing whore.

He and his brother Bry had reminded me daily how pathetic I was. Not even once did they acknowledge me with respect let alone address me by my own name.

It hurt me and yet I had no excuse whatsoever, I came onto him. At that time all I could think about was how big of a mess I had just made and how the hell I was going to get out of it.

I had already told him a part of  my story, a story that only Nate knew. Was I that blinded by stupid feelings to open up to him, my tormentor? Now he knew it and he was already rejecting me. I had given him more information to use against me, I should have never let my guard down at all.

What was I thinking telling him about my mum and Nate?How could I have been so careless to tell him my story after everything he had put me through?  Oh god, he was doing the same thing Nate did, except that his rejection hurt more than Nate's and we hadn't even had sex. What if he tells Bryson that I came onto him, goddess knows what his brother would do with that piece of info.

The thought of Bryson finding out about what I just did was killing me. He would be so convinced now that I was even more promiscuous than he thought. It didn't matter if I had slept with Nate only, he would definitely twist the story to his satisfaction.

  I was sure that if he ever found out the taunting and insults would become worse. Ray was always the sensible one, but Bryson  was pure evil. He would never give me space, he would make sure that everyone around him knew I was slutty.

By now my body was numb,  I didn't even feel the tears now and at that time I knew I had to ask Ray to leave. It had to be done, I needed to recollect myself and deal with the rejection.

"Ray, I'm so sorry for coming onto you like that. I really didn't think before doing it, I know now it was wrong of me to have tried kissing you.' I sniffled, wiping away my tears.

'I'm really sorry, but I'm going to ask you to leave now. I just want to go to sleep and forget about all this.' I continued.