Pregnant and Dumped By The Alpha novel Chapter 49

But now, I could feel that love trying to fight its way up from the pits of my heart, where I had buried it deep down years ago. But I didn't want him to leave me and I didn't know if I could trust him fully with all my heart yet. He couldn't snap my heart again, and I wasn't about to give him full reigns to be able to do that. I couldn't do it. I couldn't do it again because I didn't know if I would ever be able to pick myself up if he did hurt me ever again.

So, too scared to be hurt again, I ran away from him once again in tears.

Tears.

I hated these things; yet right now, they seemed to never stop pouring out of my eyes as Ryan held me tightly against him chest. My head was aching for crying for his long and my whole face felt wet.

But that wouldn't explain the horrible, gut-wrenching feeling I had in my stomach while my heart was aching more than anything. I could tell Ryan was feeling the same way as well because I felt warm teardrops slide down from her face and onto my forehead.

I didn't care right now that I looked like a mess. I was sure my make-up was painted all over my face messily like a toddler's portrait while my clothes and hair was completely dishevelled. But once again, I couldn't seem to care.

You may be wondering right now why I'm crying so much and why I'm in this much pain? Well this is what happened mere hours ago . . .

"What's wrong Mom? I came here as soon as I could!" I panted as I entered the room, holding hands with the twins. Dad took the twins and felt the room with a heart-broken look on his face. He seemed quiet and he barely even greeted me when he opened the door to let me in.

She looked paler than normal if that was even possible and I could see that glow on her face fading. The brightness of her skin now held a blue tinge.

"W-wait till R-Ryan gets h-here, I want to t-talk to y-you b-both together," she whispered, her voice fading at the end. Her voice was croaky and she could barely speak. I had noticed that she was getting worse over the weeks, but now, she seemed to be even worse.She had never been as bad as this.

Recently, she had even had to get an IV machine as well as other machines hooked on to her and currently reading her heartbeat it was a lot lower that what it should've been for someone like her. I was worried about her. . . very worried.

As we waited for Ryan, I told her about my date with Chase, which happened about two days ago, and everything else. I told her about my confused emotions and feelings about him while she would just smile at me in a knowing way.