Returning from the Dead: His Secret Lover novel Chapter 1455

Chapter 1455 I Was So Wrong

Nancy, if you’re reading this letter, I’m probably no longer in this world.

I’m sorry for saying goodbye like this. I am in so much pain. Many times when I regained consciousness, I would find myself holding a piece of glass, or my arms would be full of needle holes. Nancy, I’m sick. So I came to the psychiatric hospital, hoping that they could cure me.

But turns out, it is useless. Brandon used to appear in my mind when I fell asleep. But now, it’s Solomon.

Nancy, I’m really crazy.

I don’t know what I’ve done these few years. I used to be obsessed with Brandon deeply. But after I saw Solomon take Ichika home, I realized I could not be bothered regardless of how badly Brandon had treated me.

But instead, I am upset seeing Solomon being so in love with Ichika. It feels as though a thousand needles are stabbing through my heart. I even wanted to destroy their relationship and drive Ichika away.

Nancy, am I scary? Am I a shameless person?

Yes, even I can’t accept myself.

So, I chose to leave you guys. Maybe it’s because I have a terrible marriage with Brandon. I got jealous when I saw Solomon and Ichika being so happy. After I left Brandon and went back to my own life, I figured everything would be fine.

But, Nancy, it didn’t work out.

The sufferings didn’t stop but got worse. When I locked myself up in the psychiatric hospital these two months, I felt like dying. I kept thinking about those days back in Clear, and I’m desperate to go back to that time. Back then, I could eat at your place after getting off work. And whenever I got into trouble, I could find Solomon shamelessly.

Nancy, I finally understand. I’m like a kid who got spoiled by you two. I’m not the youngest among us, but because the two of you are too outstanding and because of your care, I became someone who only knew how to create troubles. No matter how many mistakes I made, you guys would always tolerate me.

You guys are like my family.

But this time, after what happened with Brandon, everything’s gone.

I can’t be like before anymore. I can’t cry in your arms and I can’t find Solomon as I want and live in his house as if it is my home.

I can’t anymore.