SAGE novel Chapter 54

Sage Miller

I closed my eyes shut pinching the bridge of my nose a little frustrated with Eve.

"My God Eve, just say so if you don't wanna see me okay. I get it, you're still upset with me about the whole suicide thing but I told you I would never try to kill myself and I'd like to think if I were I would do it right and get it right." I rubbed my face with both my hands before opening my eyes.

Eve was staring at me frowning. " I know you didn't okay, before when I said all those things I was angry and hurt and the thought of loosing you was just too much. It was easier to be angry than to admit I was scared of loosing you and besides you wouldn't have come to Wren for help if you wanted to die. I wasn't thinking straight back then."

I sighed and look down feeling embarrassed. "Oh.. I just thought cause I just got here and you asked, Oh....." I trailed off flustered.

Eve chuckled a bit. I looked up at her surprised, it was the first time I've heard her laugh, even if it was a small chuckle. The last few days have been gloomy for her. She can't even get out of the house freely as she's on house arrest until the trail.

"Yeah, I just need someone to pick up my takeaway, Zac isn't here Wren is at work but I could always get her to send her assistant but she's annoying, Harry is busy today but you're here." She told me. "I stopped getting it delivered because paparazzi are sneaky, they ride along the delivery car just to get inside the estate."

"How's the case going anyway?" I asked her sitting down next to her.

"I don't even ask. I've had a lot of time in my hands since I can't go to Campus anymore or even within 20 feet of my house and all my sponsors dropped me so I've been watching a lot of law and order, Bull, Suits, Pearson and Chicago Justice, Do you know there's a lot of shows that star in Chicago, Chicago med, Chicago Fire, Chicago Pd-" I stopped her by putting my hand on her knee.

She looked down at my hand then looked up at me. I could tell she was freaking out but trying not to. 

I breathed out a laugh. "And that one show where that billionaire works with the police, APB." I added to her list and she smiled sadly. It was sad that we both knew why she is so invested in listing these show and why I was helping. We were both deflecting. "I'm gonna pick up that takeaway. Look up that APB show on Netflix and we'll watch it when I get back."

"I finished season 1 and it isn't on Netflix." Eve told me.

"Umm, okay, look it up somewhere else and I can start on season 2 with you." I didn't care what we watched, I just wanted to spend some time with my sister and cheer her up.

"Well, it was cancelled after season 1." I blinked at her truly disappointed. I even felt a pang of disappointment. I thought it was a good show, I didn't even think it was cancelled.

"Uhm, we can watch some other show then." I told Eve but not as excited as I was before. I stood up picking up my keys to go pick up Eve's seafood.

The restaurant was crowded and every seat was taken and there was a long line but I guess Joe's Stone Crab Restaurant is the best that's why there's a line. I took out my new phone Wren got me and checked out the new applications I had.

I texted back and forth with Eve and complained about the long wait I was enduring and after some time I got to the front.

"Pick up for Scarlet Johnson." I almost snorted saying the name. Scarlet is her favorite actress and probably her all time favorite person.

The guy looked at me like I was crazy and I tried my best not to burst out laughing at the look the guy was giving me. He cleared his throat. "Coming right up Sir."

I turned around and for the first time looked at the scenery inside the busy place. I blinked a couple of times when I saw Zac sitting down at a Alora's table. I didn't even know that Alora was here.  I was about to walk over there when the waiter called for my order.

I turned around and took it my mind still on Alora and Zac. "Thank you for visiting Joe's Stone Crab Restaurant, please visit again."

I didn't get to hear the rest because I left. As I got closer to Alora's table the chatter around the restaurant died down drowning into the background.

I didn't get what she was doing here with him, many questions flew to mind but I knew I wouldn't get any answers if I didn't ask. All I know is that she's still dating that redhead asshole and she's not friends with Zac so I'm sure there's another explanation that doesn't involve them sleeping together because if Alora is going to cheat, she would cheat with me.

"-I'm so alone right now, I have no one-" I froze when I caught those words. I scowled, my chest suddenly feeling heavy. I didn't understand why she was telling him all that and not me. I also didn't get why she said she has no one. 

I thought this last few days were amazing. I thought we were going somewhere with this weird friendship. I didn't know I was no one. I thought she was happy to be with me, why wouldn't she tell me how she was feeling.

Why?

"-I am so close to falling off the deep end-" She giggled hysterical then hiccupped. "-I know I'm smiling right now but the light inside of me is dying."

"Uhhhh what?" Zac said probably confused.

"-but here I am blabbing about my own sexy thrilling life, what is going on with you?" From where I was standing I couldn't see Alora's face but I could see Zac's, he looked concerned and so was I.

"You okay?" Zac asked her worried. I took a step forward and I was about to reached out but I pulled back. I wanted to hear what Alora would say. 

The truth is I didn't know if I make her unhappy because if I didn't she would've talked to me and she wouldn't have to say she's alone because she would have me. 

"Oh, I'm fine. It's just that life is pointless, nothing matters, I'm always tired and also I can't sleep, I'm overreacting and nothing interest me but I'm fine as far as it goes I guess."

I suddenly felt disgusted with eavesdropping on their conversation. I looked down ashamed of myself. I know I she owes me nothing and I can't tell her who not to talk to but it hurt hearing her say all those things to him when she never told me.

"It could be worse right?" She giggled again and I turned around and left the restaurant before I Sage everything.

On my way back to Wren's house I passed a convenient store so I took a reckless U-turn and went back and bought a cheap bottle of Brandy.

I wanted to turn back around so bad and got back to that table because I couldn't stop thinking about what she sad to him. I knew this wasn't about me and I shouldn't make it about me. I had a half mind not too, that half mind was concern about her. 

She didn't sound okay but the other half, the narcissistic, the one that always wins, that wanted me to turn the car around, the one that is always jealous and possessive was hurt and questioning everything.

For five whole minutes, I sat in my car in my driveway conflicted on whether to be there for my sister or to act out and go crazy on Alora but at the end I chose correct, I got out of the car and went inside.

Eve wasn't in the living room where I left her so she must be in her room. I went to the kitchen to put the food there and went upstairs to her room. I raised my hand to knock but froze when I heard someone laugh along with Eve inside.

My blood boiled with rage and fury. I pushed the door open hoping that I was hearing things that Kate wasn't in my sister's room but she was petting Fin, Eve's cat sitting on her bed. 

"Oh my God, She is so cute." Kate praised with her sweetly sickly voice.

Both Eve and Kate whipped their heads arounds when I pushed the door.

"Sage, Finally!" Eve exclaimed beaming at me. Her joy made it hard to keep my eyes on the ball in this case which is Kate, the disgusting ball.

I kept my hard glare at Kate who smiled like nothing happened a few days ago. Like I didn't strangle her. My eyes quickly moved to her neck but it was heavily plastered with make-up to cover the bruises. 

"Look who came to visit!" Eve pointed at Kate giving her a side huge as she passed her walking up to me. "Aren't you excited to see her, you won't say hello."

Eve was too excited about this which made me want to murder Kate even more and this time Sebastian wasn't here to save her.

"Kate what are you doing here?" It was so hard not to strangle her. I stayed rooted to where I was standing holding on to some miraculous self control.

"Your sister invited me." She answered casually and coly. 

"And how did she do that?" I asked her suspiciously.