“From Ashes to Hope) Chapter 12
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His words struck me with a sense of absurdity, and I burst into laughter, a
laughter that echoed through the room, filled with my scorn and helplessness,
mocking the absurdity of life and the complexity of fate.
Each laugh was filled with endless ridicule, spreading through the air, as if
trying to tear a hole in the oppressive atmosphere.
But amidst the hysterical laughter, tears streamed down my face, each drop
carrying pain and disappointment.
My heart felt like it was being squeezed by a cold hand. So, in his mind, the
impact of Lily’s death was merely the fear of not being able to explain it to his
family.
I mocked my own stupidity.
On countless lonely nights, I had hoped that he would have some paternal
conscience, that he would be heartbroken over Lily’s death. I had woven
beautiful dreams in the darkness, imagining him holding Lily’s photo, sobbing
uncontrollably, regretting his failure as a father.
But now I realized it was just my wishful thinking.
My heart felt like it was being roasted on fire, every inch of my skin scorched
by pain, a pain that emanated from the depths of my soul.
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I laughed, my face contorted with grief and anger, my body trembling
uncontrollably like a leaf in the autumn wind.
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I hated my own naivety, hated myself for not seeing his true colors sooner.
In this marriage, I was like a lonely dancer, wearing the red shoes from the
fairy tale, spinning alone in the darkness until I was exhausted.
On this cold and heartless stage of marriage, I performed my solo act of
sorrow and despair.
As my laughter subsided, I felt drained of all strength, only able to fix my
gaze on his eyes.
Those eyes, which once made my heart flutter, now filled me with disgust.
The coldness in them was like a sharp blade, piercing my heart.
“John, sign the divorce papers.”
My voice was icy, devoid of warmth, echoing from the depths of an abyss,
each word laced with determination, reverberating through the silent room.
At this moment, the last shred of affection I had for him vanished. The
sweet memories, the tender words, the loving gaze, all disappeared like smoke in
the wind, without a trace.
I felt my heart bleeding, each drop a testament to the failure of this marriage,
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the crimson drops a sorrowfal flow from my thamesed heat
I didn’t want to have anything to do with fus cold and headless man
anymore. I just wanted to break free from the shackles of mattage, to liberate
my soul, like a bird that had been caged for too long peating to star imo the sky.
Hearing my words, his unfocused eyes refocused, filled with regres and
despair, a deep sense of helplessness
His gaze scanned my face, as if searching for something
He frowned when he saw my face, asking in confusion. “What happened to
your face?
“Allergic reaction,” I replied coldly, I told you before, I’m severely allergic to
alcohol
My usually fair skin was now bright red, the redness stark and painful, as if I
had been burned.
The swollen areas were slightly raised, like small hills scattered across my
cheeks, forehead, and chin, marring my previously smooth skin.
There were even tiny rashes in some places, densely packed like pinpricks,
Back then, no matter how serious or sincere I was, each word from the
bottom of my heart, he only saw it as a performance, as me being jealous of his
This feeling of not being trusted was like a thorn, deeply embedded in my
heart, growing deeper with time.
After a while, he suddenly seemed to remember something and frantically
For a moment, I thought he had finally come to his senses, that he was going
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to call someone to bring the divorce papers so he could sign them and end our
broken marriage.
The phone in his hand seemed to carry my hope for liberation.
However, John called his assistant again. Only after the call connected and
he heard the assistant’s voice did he remember that he had already fired him.
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