Seduced by My Childhood Sweetheart’s Brother novel Chapter 238

Chapter 238 

Did I feel lost? How could I possibly not feel lost when the person who had been taking care of me all this while was suddenly distancing himself? 

But what right did I have to complain about it? 

I threw the phone aside and repeatedly told myself that Colin had found the love of his life. Wasn’t this what I had always hoped for in the past? I should be happy for him. 

But for some reason, I just couldn’t feel happy. 

I hadn’t realized why I was so sad and upset. I was just deluding myself, telling myself that all this was normal and that it was bound to happen someday. It just came a little too sudden, so I wasn’t mentally prepared yet. 

I kept comforting myself, telling myself to start getting used to this version of Colin and this version of me. 

However, even with all the excuses I could think of, I couldn’t accept or forgive him for declaring his affection for another woman. Not before I had even given him an answer. 

We had a promise, but he had broken it. It was clearly his fault. 

Thinking about this, I couldn’t help feeling a sense of betrayal. I could feel the wet patch on my pillow spread. 

I wanted so badly to call Colin and ask what he meant by his actions. I wanted to ask if he no longer needed my answer. 

But I just couldn’t bring myself to press the call button even after searching for his name. 

It was because I was afraid. 

I was afraid that if the answer wasn’t what I wanted, I would be at a loss. 

This wasn’t the first time I was abandoned. Once, I was harshly criticized and humiliated when I sought the truth. If today was a repetition of the past, I wouldn’t want to ask again. I didn’t want to be humiliated once more. 

I had my pride too. 

Suddenly, I remembered what my mother had said. She wished that I would no longer have any involvement with the Whites. 

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There were so many people in this world. The daughter of the Lawsons didn’t have to rely on the sons of the Whites. 

I had always thought that Colin and Felix were different. Colin had promised he wouldn’t lose me. 

Alas… 

I hadn’t done anything, but I had already lost miserably. 

For the first time in my life, I tasted disappointment. 

When dawn broke, I wanted to get up but found my head spinning when I tried to. My eyes were dry and gritty. 

Picking up my phone to look at myself, I was startled. My eyes were bloodshot, my cheeks were swollen, and my skin was as white as paper. I resembled a vampire that had been buried underground for a thousand years. I looked terrifyingly haggard. 

This was also the first time I was in such a miserable state because of a man. 

Mom was right. I really shouldn’t set my heart on the sons of the Whites. 

Because it hurt. 

The Whites always hurt me and made me sad. Why should I still long for their warmth and care? 

Forget it, Luna. 

I was telling myself to forget about them. Everything would come to a pass. I shouldn’t be sad anymore. If love could only bring pain, then perhaps life would be better without it.