Chapter 364
The nurse said that Felix would be asleep for a long time. To stabilize his mood, she gave him sedatives.
Lights were switched off at nine at the wards. Colin and I sat silently in the darkness.
I looked outside while Colin stared at me with cold eyes. I knew he resented me, but I let him be. There weren’t many things I could do for him. But by sacrificing myself, it showed that our love wasn’t in vain..
I didn’t dare to look at him or meet his eyes. I was afraid that once I turned around, my resolution would vanish.
My heart ached. It probably would hurt for the entirety of my life. But perhaps that was the only way to know that I still breathed.
When it was almost dawn break, I couldn’t hang in there anymore and fell asleep.
The noises from the corridor woke me up. I realized that Colin’s jacket was on top of me, but he was nowhere to be found.
Did he leave? A world without him felt so lonely.
I heard shuffling from the bed, and Felix opened his eyes. There was no light in his eyes, but they were lively. “Is that you, Lulu? I can smell you.”
“Yes, it’s me,” I mumbled.
He smiled like a child who was given candy.
Then, he stretched out his hand. “Lulu, can you hold me? I want to feel you.”
Right at that moment, Colin came in and heard his request. His eyes immediately turned glossy, and his broad hand froze on the door handle. He shot daggers at my hands, which rested on my sides.
Almost instinctively, I hid my hands behind me. Then, I uttered, “Tuck your hands back in your blanket. I don’t want you to catch a cold.”
Felix’s hand trembled for a little bit. Then, he buried it under his blanket and said compliantly, “Okay, Lulu. I’ll do whatever you tell me to do as long as you stay with me.”
I hated it.
But I no longer had the right to confront him because he injured himself by saving me.
When Felix was discharged, the doctor said someone should look after him 24/7 as he wasn’t stable psychologically.
I suggested hiring a professional caretaker. They would most certainly do a better job than me. However, Felix did not like the idea. He said he couldn’t stand having a stranger next to him or taking care of him.
Therefore, Colin had to carry Felix downstairs, get into the car, send me back to my apartment, return home, and climb back to the sixth floor with Felix on his back.
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