"Everything I did was just because I wanted to be with you. I just used the wrong way. Everything in the past was my fault. Give me a chance to make it up to you and love you properly, okay?"
Okay? No.
I was so frustrated.
At this moment, I could confirm that Felix indeed had psychological issues. He was either suffering from depression or was paranoid. Otherwise, he would understand my clear rejection.
Mental illness was still an illness. When it started to affect one's life, it had to be treated.
I rubbed my temples helplessly and said impatiently, "Let me say this one last time. Please remember never to ask me this question again because I'm really annoyed. I don't like you—not now and not in the future.
"So I won't be with you, ever. Don't do these meaningless things anymore. Apart from annoyance, I feel nothing else."
Felix's tall and thin figure swayed as if he had been deeply wounded. He stumbled slightly as if he were disappointed by me. The light in his eyes dimmed, turning into despair, which annoyed me.
His affection was truly meaningless to me.
"Lulu, you don't want you anymore, do you? Then, what do I have left?" Felix murmured softly. His eyes were filled with desolation like that of a wanderer without a home.
Seeing him like this made me uncomfortable as well. After all, we grew up together, and we shared 18 years of unforgettable memories.
But he had made his choices, so he had to bear the consequences.
"Felix, it's not that I don't want you. It's just that there's nothing between us. My life belongs to Colin now. Whether it's in life or in death, I belong to him. In the future, I'll be your sister-in-law, and we'll become a family. We'll still be together, just in a different way."
Felix smiled bitterly. It was a beautiful yet sorrowful smile.
When I walked over to Colin, Felix said behind me, "I knew before you came that we wouldn't have a future together. But I still wanted to try. Perhaps you're right.
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