Over the years, whenever we were about to take the final step, Colin would eventually take a two-hour cold shower to calm himself down. Fortunately, he had exercised all year round and was in good physical condition, or he wouldn't have been able to endure it.
I had no idea if enduring too long would cause his manhood to lose its function. In any case, he would certainly suffer a lot of psychological torture.
However, it probably wouldn't lose its function. There was no way couples usually split up because they had lost their sexual abilities. Some religious people stayed away from women throughout their lives. Were they all losing that physical function of their bodies?
Colin was being clingy, so I had to do my role as a girlfriend by comforting him. What if his important part lost its function? I might lose my happiness for the rest of my life.
Thus, I decided to encourage him to keep enduring. Victory wasn't far away, after all.
"You're not even comforting me. I'll endure it till death! Hmph, I'll sleep by myself tonight. I won't hug you."
The clingy Colin appeared to be in a nasty mood. He turned around and hugged himself tightly.
I stared blankly at his broad back, unable to recover for a long time. I felt that something was wrong with me.
I was usually tired and sleepy and wanted to go to bed early, but Colin kept kissing and hugging me. I even considered giving him sleeping pills to stop him.
Today, he slept alone and gave me the quiet night I desired, allowing me to sleep as much as I needed. However, I couldn't get used to it anymore. I felt lonely, cold, and aggrieved that I had been abandoned.
Colin's embrace had become my luxury. I found it difficult to fall asleep without it.
However, I couldn't let him know because it would make me appear weak in his eyes.
Fine then. It didn't matter if he wasn't willing to hug me. I'd sleep on my own.
I tossed and turned in bed repeatedly without sleeping.
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