They then fell into silence when the doctor came for them from a near distance.
"Roman is still in critical condition after the surgery, but he has regained some consciousness now. I think you might want to see him." The doctor's remarks spoke volumes about their father's health condition.
"You first," Ezra glanced at Ruth and said indifferently.
Ezra was unwilling to see Roman with Ruth because she never treated him as family and he just treated her the same way back. He thought they'd better take turns visiting their father.
Ruth entered Roman's ward without a word.
Roman was nearly at death's door, being gaunt and green around the gills. Ruth had every right to hate Roman who had a marked preference for sons over daughters.
Ruth believed Roman was the chief culprit who cornered Diana her mother and Anna. The three of them would not be reduced to this circumstance if he had given her and Anna more warmth, and if he had given her mother due respect and love.
But now their condition was miserable: one died, one went mad, and Ruth was about to be behind bars. Ruth couldn't help weeping bitter tears in the face of Roman's gauntness.
"I'm sorry…" Roman said to her on the bed, holding out his hand difficultly. His words seemed to be more comforting before his pending death
"Sorry?" Ruth suddenly lost control of her mood.
"How does your apology help us in any way?"
"My mom is now a maniac! Anna and Linda Marshall died! And look at what you got me into! Your apology is now the last thing I need."
"Can your apology make us live our lives one more time?"
Her yell made it harder for Roman to breathe; he had to take big gulps of breath again. The doctor, Ezra, and Maisie walked in right away as the monitoring apparatus shrieked.
Roman had not known about the death of Anna and Linda. He had been in a semi-coma all day until a severe pain suddenly attacked him in the chest. He had difficulty breathing as if someone was dragging him and would not stop it till dragging him down to hell.
This was the status quo after the monitoring device gave an alert and the doctor gave his resuscitation. Roman completely collapsed by the unexpected news from Ruth that Anna and Linda died although he did not value them too much. After all, two daughters leaving him forever at once was poignant.
"The patient is in critical condition. I told you to come here not to make things worse by yelling, but maybe to see him and say the last words you could."
Ruth stepped aside at a loss, her mind a blank. She then turned around and left the ward sadly. She had no more to say to her father. She also did not have the slightest grief over his pending death.
Ruth would not choose to become a human being if there was a next life, just as Anna wrote in her suicide note. Ruth hoped she would not become a human being; more importantly, she would not be a daughter of such parents again.
Roman was overwhelmed by the death of his two daughters and there was nothing the doctor could do to save his life. He was too weak to say anything when Ezra and Maisie came near to his bed.
"Sorr…" He passed away, failing to finish his apology to Ezra despite his trying so.
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