She Accepted Divorce He Panicked (Scarlett and Sebastian) novel Chapter 161

Scarlett’s POV

I stop, but I don’t know how to turn around.

For a long moment I pause there, and for a long moment, he waits patiently behind me.

How great it would be, if he had asked me this question at ANY POINT in our marriage? If he had doubted Ava just a little bit in the long time window when I kept hope, I would have jumped to tell him the truth. If I had even a shred of confidence that he would have believed me, I would have.

But now...

I turn around, only to find him standing on the green grass when I’m already off on the cold blacktop. A hard line between us, like the five years that we can leap over. He looks at me with too complicated a look that I can’t quite read. In his eyes are hope, struggle, hesitation, and...fear.

Fear of what? Of me being the girl he saved? Or not?

“The question is...” I take a deep breath just so I can look into his eyes, “Do you WANT me to be?”

Were you taking care of Ava ONLY because of that girl, or was your love for her also because of who she was? For ten years she has been a mean girl but you could never see that. Just like how for ten years I have been the girl who had a crush on you when you could only see me as an evil dragon.

I don’t see how such a strong love could only come out of a glance of one day, but if it was...then maybe, maybe, I can try again?

“I...” Sebastian hesitates, the hope in his eyes dims together with the sky. I maintain my smile as I count the seconds, giving myself a time limit as I wait for his answer --