She Accepted Divorce He Panicked (Scarlett and Sebastian) novel Chapter 175

Scarlett's POV

“I appreciate your trust,” This is the first words from Sebastian on our way to the Fuller’s.

“I’m not letting you be with Ava alone,” I fold my arms and look away.

He lets out a slight laugh.

I do trust him. I trust that he doesn’t lie, and I trust that he thinks he has been doing the right things. But that’s it. I am not trusting him with a lot of things, even with things about Ava aside. He doesn’t know about my conncections with the Vanderbilt, and he doesn’t know about Ava’s lie, and...our baby.

“I--” I hesitate, weighing which secret might be the slightest to tell, “What changed your attitude toward me, all of a sudden?”

I want to know if I can trust him with any of my big secrets.

He glances at me in the rare view mirror, and a bitter smile crawls onto his lips with a shade of irony.

“What?” I frown.

“Nothing,” He looks straight at the road, answering as if he is in an interview, “I guess I have always felt like I was forced to be with you, but the divorce lifted that dark shadow that has been blinding me from my true feelings. I started seeing things from different angles, and I realized how wrong I have been.”

So all I needed to do was to leave?

“Well, if I didn’t force your hand...would you have married Ava?”

I actually wish that he would say yes. Because that would give the past five years a little sense -- I only did that because I saw no other way to expose Ava’s lie to him at that moment. But if he weren’t going to, then...

“I don’t know,” He answers.

Tsk. I glare at him. What kind of answer is that?

“You can tell the truth. I won’t be mad.”

“You are mad at my answer right now,” He laughs, darting his sight from the road to me briefly.

“I’m mad at your lie!” I roll my eyes, hmphing, “I know you would have!”

“Would that make you jealous?” He leans over to search for my eyes, and I dodge all the way to the other side, “I said I don’t know because that if would never be true. I married you, and I fell in love with you. That’s what happened. I don’t live in regretting the past because regret can’t change the past. But the future can be changed. I can.”

I stare at him, can’t help his charm coming back to life in my mind. We don’t necessarily share all values about life, but he always surprises me with his, making me think and grow with him. Only it wasn’t always this easy. It used to be done through fights.