She Accepted Divorce He Panicked (Scarlett and Sebastian) novel Chapter 194

Scarlett’s POV

My belly is empty. The first thing I feel when my mind wakes up, is the horrifying emptiness.

Not just my belly. My whole body is emptied by the long, dark dream that trapped me.

Sebastian was in it. So was Ava, Jack Fuller, Anna Fuller, Damian Vanderbilt... They tangled into the shadow that wrapped me up so tightly that I couldn’t breath. But I couldn’t die in my dream, so I could only suffocate over and over, like buried alive in my coffin, watching my life passing by in front of my eyes. Literally. In my dream I wasn’t Scarlett, I was a specter watching the little Scarlett suffering through all the lies, the harm, the pain, and blood, all the way till the kid lured her into the dark woods, passing that, and then the crashed car.

It wasn’t a dream. It was all real. It was my memory. I couldn’t remember anything from the car crash, but I did witness it. And in this deep dream, I saw my own memory. I keep my eyes closed, trying to savor the dream that’s fading fast. Effort in vain.

All I could grab on was a pair of purple eyes. They weren’t mine. They are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in this world.

They belong to my mom. I just know.

If only I could be with her by now. I have nothing left to live for.

“She’s awake!”

Someone shouts. Their voice is really loud, ringing in my head, and giving me a headache. I frown, waving my hand to chase them away. But they won’t leave.

“Her finger! Her finger moved!”

“Shut up! Of course she could move! She isn’t dead! She’s just sedated!”

I want my body to be active, and my mind numb. Not the other way around. There is too much pain in my mind and I cannot bear it. I wish I could wake up to the day lost in those woods, and stay lost there, so all the pain that followed wouldn’t be there. I wish I didn’t wake up in the car crash and leave this dark world with the one person who ever loved me.

Anything but this. I don’t want to wake up to this.

...but then again, when did I ever get what I wanted?

“She’s crying...”

With the non-stop reporting of my status and the machine’s beeping and all the other noises drilling into my head, I have to open my eyes. I blink. Even before my eyes could focus, I saw all the blurry figures surrounding my bed, giving me no room to breathe.

They are the dark shadows in my dream.

Aurora stands right by my head, behind her is Adrian with his eyebrows twisted in worry. Beside him is Damian Vanderbilt, towering over Lilith who is stretching her neck for a look at me. On my other side is Oliver Scott, and then Anna Fuller, Jack Fuller, Ava Fuller.