She Accepted Divorce He Panicked (Scarlett and Sebastian) novel Chapter 235

Sebastian left his room soon after, and the host moved on to the items following. Everything seems to be falling back on track, but everything feels wrong now.

One luxurious item after another gets on the stage, yet not getting the attention they deserve. The fight over Frozen Night is too dramatic, and the audience can’t help looking at the items as more boring than they actually are.

Ava is back. An invisible wall between her and Jack Fuller as they fall back into their seats.

Scar is not even in the mood to enjoy that.

Sebastian was the one falling for a liar. Sebastian was the one who gave that liar access to their house. Sebastian was the one willingly giving up his everything for a ring that he gave up in the first place.

But for some reason, Scar feels horrible.

She couldn’t even pin it down, but she just can’t enjoy her win. Something tells her – well, shouting inside her soul that he doesn’t deserve this. She tries to argue with that voice, but she couldn’t find all the rage that was inside her before.

Shouldn’t she be happy? Now that she successfully lashed all her anger out on him? Now that she destroyed him? Now that she inflicted all the deserved pain on him for his mistakes? So he never actively tried to hurt her, so what? So he tried to make amends even before he found out about Ava’s lie, does that make a difference? So he forgot that he granted Ava access to his house when she hadn’t shown him her true color, does that make him innocent of the death of their baby?

She couldn’t answer any of these questions.

A different kind of emptiness washes over her. She’s not familiar with it, but she recognizes all the symptoms of panic attacks she used to have a lot. Having trouble breathing and seeing straight, Scar jumps up and pulls the curtain close before she slides down the wall in the corner, gasping for air.

Why doesn’t revenge taste sweet and delicious like she imagined? Why does it hurt her so much when she only gave him what he deserved? How could HE trigger a panic attack when she doesn’t even care about him anymore?!

That last question scares her.

No! She doesn’t fucking care about him! Not anymore! She has cared about him too much for too long, to no end! It’s just too painful to love that man. Too much more than she could bear!

Alice! She needs Alice! She needs to hear that clean voice, and cast away the darkness that’s swallowing her!

Breathing becomes harder. Scar grabs her throat, reaching for her phone. But what’s only on the table several feet away feels as far as the skyline. Her fingertips shake only in front of her with the distance not reducing at all.