025 The Iron Lady
Scarlett’s POV
“I was mad at you for loving him when he was a total jerk to you, but that’s not the main reason why! couldn’t talk to you in all these years.” Lilith starts with a nervous look.
I did not see that coming. I really thought that was the reason.
“….I know a secret, sort of, of Sebastian’s, I didn’t want to tell you because it would only hurt you, but i don’t know how to face you when I know I’m keeping such a secret from you, so…”
Her blurt is baffling but I sort out a lead, somewhat-
“Okay, so what’s this big secret?”
Taking a deep breath, Lilith looks like she is preparing herself for her death sentence before she say slowly:–
“May 21st, five years ago, do you…remember?”
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How could I not? That was the day Sebastian came to me and said “he agrees to my deal for his hand. I thought it was his version of “I do“. Sourly mistaken.
How happy I was that day! I close my eyes, feeling so stupid when that memory pops up in my mind. I knew he didn’t love me, I knew he only agreed to that because of Ava, but mannnnn, I was elated. I thought for once I had a chance at what I wanted for a change.
He left such a deep brand of humiliation on all my memory of him.
“Sorry, I’m fine. What about it?” I take a gulp of my lemonade, hiding the tears welling up in my eyes. I have promised myself to not cry for him again. I have to carve him out of my life. I already did.
I just need to start healing.
Lilith and Aurora exchange a worried look.
Maybe you don’t need to know,” Lilith starts, “It’s doesn’t matter now, not really. Just–”
“I want to know,” I cut her off, “I don’t care about him or his secret. I just want to know why I lost you-”
I failed. My voice lost shape when the word “lost” left me, and I burst into tears.
I never dare to even touch that day, and it all comes out at my first poke. It’s like I was back to the worst day of my life, the one I lied to myself saying that I was happy.
“I know I did wrong, I know!” I pent, try to talk between the gaps of my sobbing, “1-1 broke them up and–and the whole world turned their back on me! I deserved that! I just thought–I just thought he would see..see
“I know! My poor baby Scar, I know!” Lilith cries with me. “But that’s exactly the thing! You didn’t break them up! That’s the secret!”
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