She's the luna I want novel Chapter 20

AMARA.

The day went by draggingly slowly. And my disappointment just heightened because Jace was nowhere after class hours.

I expected him to be there to pick me up, but I guess I had unrealistic expectations.

Or he was just busy. Austin and Tyler did say this morning at breakfast that he needed to be on the other side of his territory, so it might have taken his whole day.

But I missed him.

I had to stop myself from going to their packhouse to avoid appearing too aggressive. It was enough that he spent the whole afternoon and night with me until my first class this morning.

Oh, well. There will be other days.

I walked toward the dorm from my last class with some of my classmates, and my mind was just floating in the air until one of them asked me about Jace.

"I’m sorry I didn’t hear the rest of your question," I asked Carla, the one who asked about Jace.

"You and Alpha Jace are dating, right?"

"Hmmm…" I mumbled.

"Well, Alice was saying in the breakroom this morning that it doesn’t matter if you are dating, as Alpha Jace will never cancel on her at her party."

"I don’t think I understand what you mean," I told her.

"Alpha Jace agreed to be Alice’s escort for her 18th birthday." She added, and she sounded too proud that she knew about it.

My heart thudded loudly but I didn’t let my emotions show on my face. Was this what they were talking about yesterday? And he didn’t tell me?

‘But why would he tell you?’ Ice asked sarcastically, but she sounded hurt and annoyed too.

"She said he agreed months ago, so I asked if it’s still a thing because of you, and she said yes, as he didn’t say anything when they talked yesterday." This time, Jocelyn added

"Oh, so they’re talking..." Carla said.

I wanted to roll my eyes at the malicious way the words came out of Carla’s mouth. Why did I even walk with these two? I should have walked alone and been at peace.

‘But then you will have no idea about this.’ Ice said, and again, she was right.

"Well, I’m sure it’s nothing personal, as Jace and Alicia’s father have an alliance. And it doesn’t mean anything except that he’ll be there on her birthday." I answered nonchalantly, even if I wanted to punch someone already.

"Unless she turns out to be Alpha Jace’s mate," Carla said.

"Hey, stop it! Can you be a little more sensitive? Amara is here!" Jocelyn snapped at her.

"I know, but I’m sure Amara is aware of the reality of life, and it doesn’t mean Alpha Jace will leave her for Alice."

Yeah, right. I was sure he would drop me in an instant if Alice turned out to be his mate.

"He could be Amara’s mate too," Jocelyn added meekly.

"Who knows? He could be mated to either of you. That’s the reality of shifters’ lives." I smiled at them. "But at the end of the day, what matters is who you choose to be with — your fated or your chosen."

"It’s not good to reject a fated mate," Jocelyn said.

"Rejection will not be created if it’s not possible or allowed. Remember in morals class, at the end of the day, Selene would always let us make our choices? There might be consequences for some actions, but life is how we make it. Either you let fate control you or you make your own fate."

I winked at them before waving as I turned around to leave them. Someone from reception motioned for me to come over as soon as we entered the dorm lobby.

Which I was thankful for as I didn’t want to walk the flight of stairs with them pushing the idea that Jace could be anyone’s mate because I knew he would never choose me if his mate suddenly appeared.

"Hello, you asked for me?" I smiled at the pretty woman working behind the counter.

She nodded her head as she smiled back at me. "How was your day, Amara?"

"Just lovely!" I answered in a chirpy voice. No one had to know my day sucked.

"Perfect! And I hope this will make it more perfect!" She beamed at me before her hand reached for something underneath the counter, and my eyes widened when a bouquet of flowers came out of it.

"Wow! Is that for me? Say yes, or I will be disappointed." I giggled softly.

She chuckled as she nodded her head. "It was delivered here, but I’m not sure where it came from. Security checked them, so it’s safe, and there’s a card attached, so I’m sure that will tell you."

My heart fluttered at the idea that this one might come from Jace. I’ve never received one from anyone before.

I took the flowers from her and thanked her before heading for the stairs, running and walking at a fast pace as I wanted to reach my dorm room right away.

I shared my bedroom with Collette, but more often than not, she was not around all the time as she was eighteen and hooking up with one of the warriors from this pack. So I was sure she was spending her nights with him most of the time. And I was left all alone in my room, which I preferred.

Collette was really nice, but then she talked so much about Marshall, her boyfriend, especially at times that I only wanted a moment of peace.

I unlocked the door to my room and slipped in. I excitedly placed the flowers on my bed and took the card from it, opening it slowly while my heart was thudding loudly.

Please let it be from Jace.

I squinted my eyes before they rounded when I read the message.

—--

Amara,

Sorry about what happened. I’ll do my best not to do that again.

- J

—--

A smile curled on my lips as I hugged the card to my chest. Was he apologizing for slipping his fingers into me? Well, I didn’t mind at all, but it was so sweet that he thought of apologizing for that through flowers.

I kissed the card before dropping it beside the flowers and dropping to my knees on the floor. I pulled the duffel bag under my bed and looked for the cell phone that I had. I knew I hadn’t taken it from there yet since I came home Monday night. As I never bother with phones, I had my laptop, which I use more often. And I only had this phone so Mom and Dad could call me directly, but the last two nights with Jace made me forget about it.

I found it, and I immediately took a snap of the flowers before attaching a short message that I could send to Jace. I had his number, of course, and I hope he will check his phone soon.

Amara: Hello, boyfriend! Thanks for the flowers, and I’m not upset about what happened. :)

Sent.

I threw the phone on my bed before I locked the door and began stripping off my clothes to put on a comfortable one.

I usually just lounge in lady joggers and a tank top inside the dorm. This time I chose deep green pants and a white top.

My phone pinged as I was pulling up my hair into a tight ponytail, but dropped it instantly to pick up the phone. Only for the smile on my face wiped out the moment his message came in.

Jace: I didn’t send you flowers.

Amara: What?

I hit send right away.

Jace: It’s not from me. Who sent it?

Amara: I thought it was you.

I stared at the flowers as if I wanted to burn them. Why make my heart flutter only to crash it?

I began typing again.

Amara: Is this some kind of joke?

Jace: I was about to ask the same thing. Was this a strategy to make me jealous?

I threw the phone at Collete’s bed before grabbing the flowers and tossing them in the trash can. If he was joking, it was a cruel joke.

Ping.

I let out a deep breath before proceeding to comb my hair and fix it in a high ponytail.

Ping.

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