Welcome to Ilocos Norte!
I read in my mind when I looked out the window of the bus I was riding in.
I left Fred, at the hostel we rented in Baguio.
Because I can't sleep well, my worries don't want to put me to sleep. That's why I decided to go first without him, to ride a bus at this time of night, because I also do not know how I will react when he wakes up, especially we will still have a long way trip together. Fortunately, the weather gotten good, because by the time I left, the sky had cleared. But of course it's still dark because it's night; it's a good thing that there was still a bus that time.
Maybe, repentance and fear of the mistakes I made are already hitting me.
Yes! I already accepted to myself, I am a bad bitch for sleeping with my sister's husband.
To enjoy every sexy moment we shared.
To claim him as mine in every intercourse we have.
But no matter how I tightly put to my mind that I was just doing this things right, I still felt apprehensive about it. But she- they were the first one to hurt me, my supposedly be husband now, cheated on me with my older sister. They cheated on me - he slept with my sister the very night before our scheduled wedding.
They planned to use me, to take advantage of my love for him to take all of me –all things that I owned. But they were unlucky because I also caught them in their own lustful acts.
But I'm confused now, because it's not right anymore ... I don't feel it right anymore –my growing feelings for him, to the person I am using for my revenge, it's not in my plans, I don't like this emotion, it will only betray me and hurt me when this emotion won’t stop growing in my heart.
But I can’t stop now; I have to make Diana feel the pain that is still here to me, the pain that Daniel and she caused throughout my system. The weight of these emotions are already too heavy to handle anymore, I want to transfer to them the knife they stabbed in my heart, that whatever I pull away, whatever I tried to pull it out, it doesn’t removed. It's killing me slowly; it kills the rest of my love for them, the rest of my good self. I already said it before, that I had no hope of recovering from the pain caused by what I considered a good sister.
I am full of anger and revenge, so that's right ... the word love has no place in my heart. I will never ever feel that kind of soft emotion, again.
Cause love will be just a foolish thing for me, from now on!
So I really decided, I need to end this. I need to do what is already planned. I need to actually do it so that maybe the pain will gradually disappear...
--but will it ever disappear?
FREDERIK'S POV
"F*ck! Where is she?!" I was furious, she left me - she left me after we had fun with each other.
How dare her!
"Just calm down, babe, I can't contact my sister either. Even Eddy can't reach her phone. Just what happened with you two, I thought you were together. And then here you go ... took a plane, and come here without Leysa.” My wife's worried litany.
Yes. I took a helicopter ride, fortunately I have a business partner from Baguio, so I borrowed a helicopter to get here to Burgos right away ... but f * ck it! I saw no Leysa when I arrived here at our resort.
I calmed myself; they seemed as surprised by my reaction when I found out that my sister-in-law was not here yet. I saw how Eddy's doubtful stares reached me.
"I am just worried, babe. I was with her and then in just a split of seconds --she's gone!" I just said and tweaked my hair, I'm actually not mad with Leysa --I'm just freakingly worried, maybe that's how it is. Just shit! I really can't forgive myself when something bad happens to her.
"I know her. Sometimes she just doesn't really think right before moving. But most of the time, her decisions in life are right. Let's just wait a little longer, maybe she took a bus ride that’s why she’s not here yet until now," Eddy said calmly as no emotion looked in my direction.
I am sure that this stupid best friend of mine already knows something. He will not be called as my best friend if he does not know my movements, my thoughts. Anyway, I will deal with him next time, when everything between me and Leysa is clear.
Anyways, what really is the plan? Actually none... yes, I have no plans yet but one thing is for sure, I can't just let go of my wife ... not now.
DIANA'S POV
"What? Did the two of you meet?" I smiled at what my interlocutor on the other line said.
I am here in our occupied room at the resort.
"That's right ... that's your chance, to get her heart back. We need to hurry; especially now that Daddy is getting sick. I am sure; he was already fixing the last will, in case." I added to what I said and I turned off the call.
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