"No. It's just that I've been too busy lately. I can't take care of another child since I've spent all my energy taking care of Glenn," I explained.
What I said was true.
As far as I was concerned, I didn't need to keep the fact that I was here to buy contraceptive pills from Patrick.
So I told him the truth.
Hearing my words, he looked somewhat gloomy, "Tell me, how many nannies do you need to help you take care of the child? How much do you need? I will shoulder all the expenses for you. If you are pregnant, deliver them!"
"I am fine with having a child, that is, Glenn."
I lowered my eyes slightly and said.
"I'm not." Patrick came up to me in a few steps and raised his hand to grab the drugs in my hands.
I stepped back. And he failed to snatch the drugs away from me.
I looked at Patrick with some puzzlement. With a calm look on my face, I said, "Mr. Cowell, the way you see it, is it suitable for us to continue to bear children in this situation?" "Yes."
He replied positively without hesitation.
I frowned slightly and said, "Now, it's like this. You hide everything from me, intending to control me at your fingertips. Do you think it's fair?"
In fact, I didn't even know what the relationship between Patrick and me was now.
Obviously, we were not lovers.
And we were less than a couple.
At best, we had a child. Besides that, we had nothing to do with each other.
Looking at me coldly, Patrick seemed to be thinking about something and failed to say anything for a long time.
About seven or eight seconds later, I was about to leave. Then Patrick suddenly said, "Yes, you are right."
I thought there was something wrong with my ears.
His voice was a little hoarse and sentimental.
Before I could say anything while standing there, Patrick continued, "I really shouldn't have forced you to bear any children for me again. With our current relationship, it's really not appropriate for us to have a child."
His attitude changed so fast that I didn't know what to say for a while.
But he said first, "Sorry, I took it for granted."
After that, he turned around and intended to leave.
I stood in the night and watched him walking into the darkness bit by bit. For no reason, I felt reluctant to see him leave.
"Wait a minute!"
I wasn't reconciled once again!
I took a few steps, went up to the front of his car, and grabbed Patrick's hand. When he stopped, I hugged him from behind, "What's wrong with you? Are you going to leave or stay? If you want to leave, do it neatly and never show up in my life again! If you want to stay, stay with me. And never should you leave me!"
What I wanted to say to Patrick actually was, "Please stay, okay?
However, I couldn't say it out loud.
It was unknown that starting from when had our relationship become so awkward.
It was as if we had made a big turn and gone back to the starting point.
Patrick stood where he was. After a long while, he patted me on the hand and said with his back to
me, "Good girl. I'll go."
His words made me burst into tears.
I wiped my tears on his coat and said, "If you want to leave, just leave. Don't call me a good girl. Neither should you leave me any hope or pretend that you are forced. In fact, you've been thinking of getting rid of me for a long time! If you want to leave, do it quickly. Don't bother me anymore!"
After that, I turned around and ran back to my house.
Back at home, I looked at the contraceptive pill and drank it in exasperation.
After that, I seemed to regret it again.
"If I'm pregnant, will Patrick just stay by my side?"
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