Tasting All My Mates by Alexis Dee novel Chapter 146

Tasting All My Mates by Alexis Dee Chapter 146

146-A Bar Of Sweet Chocolate Or Thiago?

'Enya! it is okay. You can cry, you know,' I don't know how long Nia had been trying to get to me but I was just silently sitting on the window's sill and watching the waterfall.

I haven't cried a river yet, but a piece of me was broken. I just wondered if that is what my mate wanted from me too.

I can never be that person who can do all these things but now I will and I must.

'Anyway, if that’s what my mate wanted, that’s exactly what I will give him. The pleasure he wants, and the satisfaction he deserves,' I muttered while smiling through tears. I was hurting. There was a part of me that wanted to scream at the top of my lungs and stream nonstop tears.

I was feeling not good enough for the world.

It's been hours since I arrived at this cabin. I even missed calls from Lazio and Thiago. Giving up on useless worries, I attended when Thiago called me for the hundredth time.

"Hello?" I asked in a gruff voice, pulling away from the window so that he doesn't hear anything that could suggest where we are.

"Enya! where the heck was you? You made me so fucking worried. I already started looking for you," Thiago complained when he groaned at me. The concern in his voice made me close my eyes and sit down in the bed.

"I am fine. It just took me some time looking for a good place," I replied to him, staring in space with my eyes full of tears.

"Are you okay?" his voice turned even more serious.

"I am fine. Just tired from looking everywhere for a safe place." I sighed, I didn't know how to tell anyone what I was feeling right now.

I didn’t even discuss it with my wolf, I just wanted the topic to be dried down for a bit.

"Enya! you don't sound good. Did you eat anything?" Thiago asked me, taking a break to quickly murmur to someone, "Lazio, I will be taking a stroll on the road so don’t worry about me." he excused and left the room. It had become like that. Whenever he would be gone for some time, we will begin to worry about him.

It was 7: 00 pm already and I haven't eaten anything. I just didn't understand how he knew I had been starving myself out of stress.

"Do one thing, open the blue bag's zipper and look for snacks. You will find some chocolates. A little sweet will raise your energy," the way he was guiding me to find chocolates was cute. I sucked the tears in and got on my knees to carry the bag to the bed and find a bar of chocolate.

"Did you find it?" he asked,

"I d—id," I had my mouth full when tears rushed down my eyes and I let out a whimper despite trying hard to not show him how I was feeling.

"Hey! Enya, what is going on? you are making me worried now," he sounded so concerned that I forgot for a moment that his wolf said he hates me.

"I am j—ust --1 am feeling lonely," I said in sobs, feeling miserable. My chest was tightening and my body aching from me keeping my anger down.

"Where is that asshole? He didn’t come yet?" Thiago asked me.

"Noh! It is fine. The moment he opens his phone I will give him a call," I dismissed the subject of a mate. I was trying to avoid thinking about anything but my relationship with my mate.

"Okay. Then I will accompany you till then." He said and soon after I received a video call from him. I stared at the screen for a moment before attending his call.

I found him sitting on the road with a concerned look on his face but then he smiled and blinked constantly in silence as if he was securing my image in his memory.

"So, how is the place?" he knew if he asks me what is up with me, I will start crying so he diverted the subject.

"It is okay," I replied, still feeling a bit down. The pain I felt earlier was still there. Nia, being in excruciating pain, had managed to calm down when hearing Thiago’s voice.

"Ah! Do you know why it is not the best? Because I am not there," he clicked his tongue and forced a smile to cheer me up.

"Enya! I want to share something with you," once I didn't smile back at him, he spoke up again. I bet he was watching me fight back my tears.

"I am beginning to feel a lot worse than before. I would have never talked about it but I feel like, in order to sway you away from your own worries, I decided to make myself a subject of interest. So Miss Wizard, tell me what should I do now?" He joked and a little laugh escaped my lips.

"Ummm! Tell me what do you feel before transitioning?" I asked him because I really needed some diversion.

"Okay! I feel my mate. I see my mate; I think about my mate when I am about to transform. But I don't think she feels the same." He was in a playful mood and it was helping me forget about that sight a lot.

"Oh that---," I was about to respond to him when I heard a knock on the cabin's door. I knew it was Maynard because who else knew I would be here?

"Wait a minute, okay?" I told Thiago to not end the call. I wanted to continue this playful conversation more than ever. I left the room and opened the door for Maynard, he looked tired and exhausted.