The Alpha Chose Me (Leah and Jake) novel Chapter 47

The Alpha Chose Me Chapter 47

I had been up for hours. I had no idea what the feeling was in my stomach. Wasn’t nerves but more of a gut feeling and I usually only got that when something bad was coming.

Jake was still sleeping. Every so often his hand would find mine. It was like he was checking to see I was still here.

Pushing the covers off I got out of bed tip toeing around my room so I wouldn’t wake him. I didn’t want to go to school. My head was all over the place at the moment. I graduate in less than 6 months and I had no idea what I wanted to do after school finished.

I had applied for universities back home pending I get in but I wasn’t sure travelling back there was what I wanted. I didn’t know how my life was going to go now that I had Jake.

Could I be away from him for so long? Something told me he wouldn’t like that or more so wouldn’t allow it. He had a temper I knew that but I couldn’t see myself doing nothing with my life.

We all had goals and up until now leading a pack of werewolf’s wasn’t mine. I wasn’t the type of girl to stay home and not work.

I don’t think I could be a housewife.

Grabbing a clean towel I closed my bedroom door quietly behind me. I was hoping my morning shower would clear my head. I worried about everything, I overthink every decision. Stripping out of my clothes I turned the shower on.

I worried I couldn’t do it. What if I wasn’t the strong girl he thought I was? What if his pack wouldn’t follow my lead like he said. Standing under the water I closed my eyes.

My anxiety was through the roof this morning.

He was always telling me not to worry or stress about it but I couldn’t help it. I put 100% into everything I did. I knew some of his pack members didn’t like me but I understood why. I didn’t ask to be his mate. He picked me not the other way around. Not that I would change it.

I had to stop putting so much pressure on myself.

Washing the soap from my body I took the towel off the rail wrapping it around my body. I didn’t feel any better. My head felt like it was going to explode. At this moment I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs. I went to bed happy and woke up feeling like crap.

My emotions were playing up and my game was off. I was stuck in a ruck with my life. I couldn’t stop the what ifs in my head. Exiting the bathroom I went back into my bedroom.

He was awake his head buried in his phone.

“Morning princess”.

“Hey”. Taking a seat at my window I pulled back my curtain slightly. It was a wet one again.

“What you worrying about?”. He asked. He wasn’t looking at me his concentration still locked on his phone. It still amazed me that he could tell something was off with me.

Was I having second thoughts? Did I really want this, want him? I was basically giving my life to him. He held everything.

I was putting it down to having an off day. We all had them and there was nothing wrong with it.

“Babe?”.

“Nothing”. I smiled getting to my feet. Grabbing my clothes I made sure not to make eye contact. I didn’t want him to worry. What I was feeling had an impact on him as well. “Leah if something is wrong then tell me”. Grabbing a hold of my hand I sighed. Chewing my bottom lip I looked into those big brown eyes.

He was definitely worried.

“I-…” I hesitated.

“I fucking knew it”. He sighed dropping my hand.

“Know what?”. I questioned.