The Billionaire's Secret Lover novel Chapter 82

I crouched down on the thick grasses as soon as I felt Nina's eyes on me. Damn! That stupid girl!! I scowled in my mind. Even though I was in a disguise of a black long flowing gown and a black hijab. Shielding my face, I knew that Nina was smart to know that it was me. No sense human would be hiding under a shrub tree, away from the rest of the wedding guests but I just needed to catch a glimpse of my love. My man, Michael__

Speaking of him, I felt my heartbeat escalated in my chest even before I saw him walking down the cathedral to the front of the church dressed in a navy blue tuxedo where Nina's stood her face frozen and pale.

I scowled as soon as I saw Michael envelop her in a hug. I was so angry that I was tempted to kidnap her, the second time and make sure she died for real but I had to remind myself that this wasn't just my revenge anymore. This was about my family, my life...

I came out of my thoughts to see Michael signaling for John, he called something to him and pointed to the scrub tree where I was still crouched down. That was my cue to leave before John could find me...

I walk briskly down the church and also try not to be so fast so as not to be suspicious. I stopped to exchange pleasantries to guests who were also hurrying to their cars for the reception.

I wish I could go there but seeing that Nina has seen me, I doubt Michael will take it lightly with the securities. It will be only for a short time before I'm found. I can't risk my revenge just because I want to attend a reception. I could sit back and watch from the comfort of my home.

I waved to the lady I was chatting with____scratch that, she was babbling and trying to get me to talk. She was quite fascinated with my outfit and even asked why I had to wear a hijab.

I had to explain to her that I was from a Muslim home. And my parents had taught me to strictly and at all times have my head cover. She seemed to believe my explanation which was why she casually told me about herself, her work, her life, and that she had three kids___like I was any bit interested. As soon as I got to my car, I was excited that I was free from her babbling. I got into my car and drove off after waving to her.

I parked my car in the driveway after making sure that no one followed me here. I always knew Michael's securities were not matched for my skills, especially John who was an ex_army.

 I walked up the stairs into my apartment which I had acquired after months of thorough plotting and planning. I met Xavier leaning on the window and staring at me with a glass of juice on his lips as soon as I opened the door. 

I sucked in breath as I was horny just once again. After Austin's death and Michael's scandal at the wedding. Xavier has been my go-to for sex. And I couldn't say I didn't enjoy any bit of it which was why right now I was already getting out of my dress. I removed my hijab, freeing my hair. I combed it through with my fingers. I saw Xavier's eyes widened in shock.

 I smiled as soon as I saw that my seduction was working. I took slow, lucid steps to meet him while deliberately slewing my hips for his eyes only. Xavier still watched me with his lips on the glass without saying a word to me.

As soon as I got to him, I smiled up at him and ran my hands through his naked dark skin, taking my time to pinch and licks his taut nipples. I felt a shiver run through me while I had to gently and cautiously romance Xavier. Otherwise, he might have just pulled his hands away from me.

I felt him stiffened before he stepped away from me. “ No, Deborah we can't do this now. We need to talk ” I scowled at him as I stepped away from the window. I knew what Xavier wanted to talk about and right now I wasn't in the mood. No matter what he said, I won't give up my revenge for anything.

“ I'm not interested,” I told him but that only seemed to infuriate Xavier as he turned to glare at me before dropping the glass on the dining.

 He walked over to me, his eyes now in a frown “ Deborah ” My name was a whisper on his lips as I watched him run his hands through his dark hairs. I love his hair, it was just like Michael's which was why I love to run my hands through them. It makes me remember longingly when Michael and I were still together.

“ Is there any way you could stop this revenge? Think about us, about our future. We still have a bright future out there, only if you would give us a chance” Xavier called to me causing me to roll my eyes at him. 

This was one thing I hated about men, especially weak men. Give them good sex and boom!! They are in love with you. They keep bothering you about wanting more, wanting a future with you instead to be contented with the good sex. No, they won't. They want a baby, a wife, a mother, and every other thing a woman can offer but I can't do that.

“ Xavier, this isn't the first nor the third time we'll be having this conversation. And my answer will remain the same, I'm not interested. Those futures you painted right now ” I paused as I made a reverence with my hands pointing to the two of us 

“ Is not for me. I have far better things to do than waste it for love ” I told him angrily before turning to walk into my room seeing that sex with him was a no-go area but his angry voice stopped me on my track.

“ I know you still love Michael but girl, it's time to wake up because Michael can never be yours. He's married to ______”

But he couldn't complete his sentence as I had slapped him loudly across the cheeks in anger “ How dare you!” I screamed up at him. Just because I'm having sex with him shouldn't have giving him that audacity to talk back to me.

Xavier laughed as he rubs his hands on his cheeks, his eyes fuming in anger “ Well?” He asked me, raising an eyebrow at me, ” Is that all you've got? Huh,” He smiles showing his perfect set of white teeth“ Go ahead, slap me more but that won't change the fact that Michael and Nina are finally married. That won't change the fact that they won and you lose. You hear me, Deborah Melton. You are a loser. Do you hear that, a fucking loser that who you are” Xavier screamed out loud in my face? For once I was thankful that the building was soundproof. I wouldn't know what to tell the neighbors if they heard our arguments.

 I know what Xavier was doing, he was trying to taunt and unnerve me but I'm not going to fall for his pranks I have far better things to do.

I smiled at him and lovingly rub my hands through his cheeks like an owner will pet his dog before turning on my heels to walk back to my room but what he said next caused my calm demeanor to come crumbling down the floor.

“ Well, fine, keep going. Continue, your revenge anyway, it's no wonder you lost your child ” Xavier's emotionless voice cut through me, seeping the energy out of my body as I crouched down on the floor, remembering the death of my precious baby! He didn't spend a second in the world.

Xavier soon realized his mistakes which was why he came running back to me as soon as he saw me squat down on the floor “ I'm so sorry, Debbie. Please forgive me ” He pleaded with me but all I could remember was that fateful evening.

“ I love your disguise, ” Xavier called to me as soon as I entered into the taxi. I smiled at him looking down at my janitor's uniform I had thrown on in the bathroom just as we pulled out of the church, I saw the police car pulling over, and Nina getting out of the car.

I turned fearfully to stare at Xavier, if he didn't save me who knows what would have happened.

I came out of my thoughts to Xavier gazing up at me with regret on his face. I wish I could tell him that I understand. That I had forgiven him but he had opened up an old wound I was trying to forget. 

Every time I remember, I always saw him smile at me before he went dead in my arms. I could still remember begging that woman who had helped me deliver him to save my baby, that he was the only one I had but the woman had only told me that there was nothing she could do. 

That he was bound to die because he had a weak heart. Do you hear that? They say he was bound to die...I had gone berserk after that, plotting and planning my revenge on the Thompsons. That when I carry it out, they wouldn't even know what hit them...

“ Deborah. Please, for my sake, for Austin's sake and little Austin Jr's sake, let it go ” Xavier begged me as he tried to pull me off the floor but my mind was made up, there was no going back now.

“ Don't you get it, I'm doing all of these because of you all. Don't you want revenge for Mia's death? ” I asked him as I walked into my room.

I threw my overnight bag on the bed and walked to my wardrobe to pick out my clothes, while Xavier stood watching me from the doorway with his arms folded across his chest. 

“ What are you doing?” Xavier asked me as he walked into the room to stop me from packing my bag.

“ What does it look like I'm doing, huh?” I retorted back at him. If only he didn't provoke me tonight. I was ready to sit back and wait for Michael and Nina to be back from their honeymoon before I strike, but he just had to say that and make me feel guilty for failing my little baby. I had promised to avenge his death and make all who cause his death pay.

“ Deborah I _____”

“ Stop, there's nothing that will change my mind. I'm going to take my revenge on everyone. I don't care if you are in or not ” I called loudly to him as I zipped up my bag and went to the bathroom to shower and get dressed.

By the time I returned to the room, Xavier was no longer in the room. I quickly adorned my dress and picked up my fake passport and stepped out of the room.

I met Xavier in the sitting room, drinking and smoking. It has been a while since I saw him smoke. I couldn't help feeling guilty that I had made him go back to his bad ways.

“ Where are you going?” Xavier asked me, his voice hard with his back turned to me.

 “ To Greece” I replied and stepped out into the cold night. I hired a taxi and got in while he drove me to the airport.