The Billionaire's Secret Lover novel Chapter 87

I rolled off the bed as soon I heard my phone rang and stood up to go pick it up. I had been pretending all morning because I couldn't bring myself to look into Michael's face without blotting out the truth.

I can't believe he doesn't want children __ well, for now as he said. What am I to do now? I can't possibly have an abortion, this was my first baby...

My God, Nina, you're so naive. Why didn't I think of his feelings and maybe ask him to use protection but alas no, I had to get pregnant almost immediately after the wedding. Who does that?

“ Nina Miller, the stupid girl ” My subconscious replied as she dropped her drink on the table and turned to glare at me. 

I returned the stare and growled at her. “ Thank you for stating the obvious, ” I told her. She scoffed at me while I stuck my tongue out at her.

I saw a note Michael had left me on the bedside table, it was simple and rushly written. He was telling me not to go to work but rest to recover my strength. 

I smile sadly at his gentle gesture. He would have made a good father to our baby. I always thought he wanted a baby anytime he looked at me whenever I was carrying Joey but I guessed I had interpreted the gesture wrongly

The phone ringing the third time pulled me out of my thoughts as I went to pick it up. Seeing the caller's ID didn't serve to reduce my pain any bit.

“Hello, baby!!” Lillian's excited voice greeted me on the other side of the phone. I sigh heavily as I sat back down on the bed, sad and tired. I wish I could share her enthusiasm. But I can't do that. Every time I saw the envelope lying in the drawer, I keep remembering Michael's words to me last night...

“ Hey, girl. How are you?”  I called silently into the phone. I tried to force back the tears that threatened to fall. I had kept them away last night at dinner because I didn't want Michael to be worried about me but now hearing Lillian's excited voice. I couldn't help tears that stream down my face.

“ Are you okay? What's wrong ?” I heard Lillian's voice across the phone but I couldn't bring myself to speak. What do I tell her? That Michael doesn't want children? No, she will be so devastated. 

“ Nina Miller, talk to me!!” Lillian's loud scream jolted me out of my thoughts as I gulped nervously before bloating out the truth.

“ Michael doesn't want children ”

“ He did what?” Lillian screamed across the phone. I could hear Danny telling her to calm down and that Joey was sleeping.

“ That selfish bastard. How can he say that? Did you tell him about the result?” Lillian asked me after she had scowled profanities at Michael. I wanted to tell her not to swear at him that it was my fault but I let it go, seeing that he had hurt me badly.

“ No. I couldn't bring myself to tell him not after he had told me that he doesn't want children ” I told Lillian gently, repeating Michael's words to me last night to her.

“ That bastard ” Lillian cursed loudly. I could imagine her pacing through her sitting room, chewing her bottom lips when she's angry.

“ He doesn't want children at all or is there a time frame for this?” Lillian asked me. I could hear Danny's voice in the background asking her “ Who doesn't want children?” 

“ Your friend, Michael ” Was Lillian's loud reply to him. 

“ There is, he said maybe in five years or more ” I replied gently as I stood up from the bed. I needed to bathe and go downstairs for breakfast else Emma will be in my room any moment from now.

“ Five years? That's such a long time. '' Lillian exclaimed bitterly across the phone. I couldn't help sighing in anger. I wish there was anything I could do to change Michael's mind but there's nothing.

“ When is your club bonding with Michael, today?” I heard Lillian ask Danny, I guess they were both in the sitting room. Though I don't know why she was asking him that but I was curious to see where this was going.

“ Around 2 pm. Why?” I heard Danny's response over the phone. I remember Michael telling me something like that at dinner yesterday. He told me that he, Danny, and Andrea will be going over to the club today.

“ Don't worry, I'll tell you, later ” I heard Lillian tell him before turning to the phone in her hands “ Are you still there, Nina?” She asked me.

“ Yes, what was all that about?” I asked her because I was curious to see what she wanted to do about all of these.

“ I'm going to go give that son of bitch a piece of my mind ” Lillian exclaimed bitterly as she shouted into the phone in anger.

“ Lillian, please can you stop with the swear words already. That's my husband you are cursing ” I told her gently. I know she was angry and I love the fact that she's always defending me but it really needs to stop.

“ Fine ” Lillian replied reluctantly as she mumbled across the phone, but I could hear her saying ‘ Husband my foot!!’ I decided to ignore that as I didn't want to get on her bad side seeing that she was helping me resolve my issues with Michael.

“ Are you coming over to the club, today?” Lillian asked me after some time as she waited silently for my response.

“ No, I would love to but I'm meeting my parents for lunch, ” I told her, shrugging as I refused her invitation. Michael had also asked me the same thing at dinner yesterday and I had refused. Initially, I had wanted to go but after his words to me last night I couldn't bring myself to be with him.

“ I have to go. Thank you for lending me a listening ear, ” I told Lillian with a gladdened heart. Talking to her has helped alleviate my sadness.

“ Sure. Anything for a sister like you ” Lillian replied as I walked over to my wardrobe to pick out my dress for lunch with my parents.

“ Say hello to your parents for me, ”  Lillian told me over the phone.

“ Sure, I will. Bye,” I called into the phone as I pulled out a yellow off-shoulder gown. The price tag causes me to shrink in fear. I still can't believe the amount of money Michael's spent on my dresses alone.

“ Bye ” Lillian replied as we both hung up and I walked into the bathroom to shower and prepare for my outing.

                               ***

“ So, how have you been?” Mom asked me coming over to the sitting room with a tray of juice and glasses.

“ I'm okay, Mom” I replied as I stared around the place I've come to know as home. A lot hasn't changed since I got married except for the cushion chairs and dining which have been replaced.

“ Are you sure there are no issues in your marriage?” Mom asked me as she handed me a glass of juice. I gulped as I nodded at her, I kept forgetting that I was in a place where they all know me more than I know myself.

“ I'm fine mom, Michael has been taking care of me” I replied as I avoided her eyes. It was the truth, Michael does take care of me, it is just that he doesn't want kids yet.

“ That's good. I just want you to feel free, talk to me about anything. Everyone knows that marriage isn't a bed of roses, there are bound to be problems. You just have to be patient and solve them gradually” 

“ Thank you, mom,” I told her, smiling at her. I love talking to her because she always knows what to say to lift my spirits just like right now.

My phone ringing pulled out of my thoughts as I turned to search for it in my bag after excusing myself from my mother who sat watching me with a knowing gaze.