“How about we don’t go home for the time being?” Anson suddenly saying this really shocks Miya.
“Don’t go home? Then where are we going now?”
Anson who is sitting in a wheelchair looks at Miya, “Let’s go find Alex; you can’t be happy again until you get the chance to meet him face to face and explain things. I really want to make you happy again because I really can’t bear to see you looking so sad like this every day.”
Miya really feels touched by Anson’s sincere words; however she cannot be so selfish and only think of herself.
“I will go find him another time. The most important thing right now is helping you to get better.”
“No! We will do whatever I say! I am going to come with you to go find Alex.” Anson speaks with a very firm tone; this is because these past few days Anson has watched her just forcing a smile and never truly smiling from the heart.
“But you are on a wheelchair at the moment; the doctor said that you can’t be moving about.” Miya feels that she can only find this reason to use.
“You don’t need to worry about this so much; I’m still able to go with you to find Alex even if I’m sitting on a wheelchair.” As Anson says this he immediately adjusts the direction of his wheelchair with his hands.
Miya struggles for a while until she finally shouts out, “Let’s not go looking for him anymore. I’ve already decided that I will give up on him, he is so cold and cruel to me, so what else does he have that should make me feel so reluctant to give up on him?”
God knows that she is suffering deeply inside as she says this.
“So since I have decided to abandon him, I don’t want to make things any harder for myself and in any case every time I go to find him I always end up humiliating myself anyways. He has already changed and become completely different to the person he used to be. He is not the same person as I knew before.”
Her whole body is shaking as she says these words.
“I’m so sorry; I have caused you to become sad once more.”
“How things are now have nothing to do with you, especially in these last few days I finally have been able to see his true character. Perhaps in the past he treated me well, however this was all just a facade. I now finally know the truth regarding him; therefore you don’t need to worry about things between me and him anymore.”
After Miya says this she takes a deep breath in and closes her eyes as if she has just made a very important decision.
She feels as if she has just decided to give up something that is very important to her.
This thing is nothing more than feelings. Can she really just let go of something so easily just by saying she will? She even misses those days before when she had amnesia. She was so carefree, and at least back then she still had a passion for life, however now it seems she is just left with responsibility and guilt.
She feels that everything is her own fault. So now she will take responsibility for herself and this also means taking responsibility for Anson’s disability, until the day that Anson can fully recover. However it is still uncertain whether this day can happen or not.
After she thinks about all this, Miya cannot help but smile rather painfully.
“Have you really decided already?” Anson seeing the sad expression on Miya’s face can’t help but ask this.
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