The Dark Side Of Fate by Karima Sa'ad Usman novel Chapter 173

~Amelia~

I was really done with everything. I realised it wasn't about me when Leo cautioned me about the lens.

It wasn't my fault that someone messed up in his past; it wasn't my fault that I was born with unique eyes.

I only got that lens so people, especially him, would stop staring when talking to me.

Most people squint as if they are trying to figure me out. I just want to be normal for a change.

I wasn't desperate, but I wanted to give it a try. I have never been in a relationship and never had anyone close to family, so it was logical that I wouldn't want to let go of my fated mate easily.

After spending almost two months with Leo, I saw him open up a little and realised he wasn't as complicated as I thought, but he wasn't willing to try.

I got the contacts to make it easy because he looked too hard, just like everyone else, and I didn't want people to always ask him if I were blind. I knew it got to him, so I chose to do the only sensible thing so we could focus on other things.

The way he behaved when he saw the lenses broke my heart.

I have never been the type to dwell on an issue. I realised his opinion of our relationship would not change. It had nothing to do with my background. He didn't see me that way, and I could not settle for less.

So I said my piece. I said it all, so I won't regret anything when I leave.

I went to my room and started packing.

I did not want to think of it. I knew I would change my mind if I did, but it wasn't healthy. He had pleaded with me to accept the rejection before, so I decided to listen and accept.

I knew he was surprised to see me with my bags packed. Thanks to his generosity, I had things to pack in a bag. I was grateful for them, but it was time to move on.

I said my final words to him and was about to accept his rejection when he kissed me. He kissed me and said he would try, but that wasn't enough. I needed more from him, so I gently broke away from him.

"Don't say you will try because you don't want me to leave," I told him; knowing that was his reason, he was speechless.

It was pretty much his assumption that a kiss would make it okay.

"What happens when the demons sets in, Alpha? What happens tomorrow and the day after that?" I asked him, and he remained speechless.

"You can say you want to try now and then give up tomorrow. I need more than what you are willing to give me, Alpha. I need commitment and effort. I am not a child.

I am a woman and have scars too. You aren't the only one that has been hurt. You aren't the only broken party in this. You do not know half of what I have been through.

At least you have pleasant memories, friends and family; I have none. Nothing to smile about in my past, but I was still willing to open up. I should be in a cocoon and hateful.

I should hate men because my experience with them hasn't been so great, but I was still willing.

I can't be your sister or a charity case. You can't expect me to be okay with it when I know it is meant to be more." I said, fresh tears welling up in my eyes.

"I understand your point about fate and freedom, but I do not understand why I have to pay for it.

I chose to hold on to my bond. Fate did not force me to; I did.

So being with a fated is also a choice, Alpha, which you threw away.

I might be thick-skinned, but some things cut deep. Telling me you will try just to keep me from leaving is low," I said and wiped away my tears.

" I meant what I said, Amelia," he said, and I shook my head.

"I need more than that. I need commitment. I need to know you will give it a hundred per cent and not look back. I need to know you won't compare me to her. I need to know I won't suffer for her crimes," I said, and he pinched the bridge of his nose and looked up. His hands shook, and I knew we had reached the difficult part.

"If you aren't willing to truly try, then it is best you let me go because I can't continue hanging like this, Alpha. I can't. I would rather leave and settle elsewhere where I can forget I met you and move on with my life," I told him, knowing I was serious about it.

He moved close to me. I tried to step back, but he held me and pulled me to his chest.