The Dark Side Of Fate by Karima Sa'ad Usman novel Chapter 215

~Devin~

I was unable to sleep. I was eager to see Susan even though I had told her it would be strictly friendship. My wolf wasn't happy with me for it, but it was necessary.

As much as she meant everything to me, loving her was killing me, and it was wrong.

Love isn't meant to kill. It is intended to build and nurture.

I heard when Susan entered the house, and my heart began to beat fast.

I was nervous and eager at the same time. I knew Rex was causing it, but I tried to control myself.

I heard her gentle footsteps on the passage and a door open.

I figured she had chosen a room already.

I did not know if it would be wise to check on her.

Maybe it was best she believed I was sleeping. That would help set the boundaries.

I laid still in bed, fighting myself from getting up and going to her, when I heard the knob on my door turn.

I shut my eyes immediately, trying to pretend that I was asleep.

I knew it was childish, but I wouldn't let her know I stayed up for her. So I closed my eyes and regulated my breathing.

"Devin," she said gently, and I fought the urge to wake up.

I usually had sensitive hearing, and I was a light sleeper. If she called me again, I would have to pretend to wake up, or she would know I was pretending to sleep. Susan was an intelligent woman.

"Devin," she said a bit louder, and I pretended to wake.

I gently sat up in bed, pretending to be waking up, and looked in her direction.

I was stunned by what I saw.

She was just as beautiful as the last time I saw her.

She had on a sexy nightgown. I wondered if she had come to my house dressed like that. I wouldn't put it past her. She must have hoped I would be awake.

Susan did not play fair.

I averted my gaze from her body and looked at her face.

I could see her eyes were swollen, and she had been crying.

"Hey," I said, trying hard not to look at her see-through robe that showed sexy lingerie like a nightgown underneath it. It was black, and it had to be lace. Susan was unfair. I fought myself from grabbing her.

"Devin," she said, calling my name but maintaining her distance.

The lights were low, so she looked exquisite in the soft light.

"Susan," I managed, and she walked towards me.

I wanted to tell her to maintain her distance, but I couldn't.

She came and sat beside me on the bed.

I looked at her, and she bowed her head and began to weep.

It was almost four in the morning, for fuck sake. She had turned me on, and now I had to console her too.

"Susan, can we do this after I have gotten some rest?" I asked her, and she looked at me with her gorgeous blue eyes.

"Please, Devin. I won't mess it up this time around," she promised me, and I knew she believed her words, but I wanted her to prove it to me.

"You have to give me time," I told her, and she gradually nodded.

"May I sleep here," she said, and I knew if she did, I would bury myself in her. It will happen faster than I would be able to handle.

"No, Susan. You have chosen a room already," I said with a strong voice but as gentle as I could manage.

She sighed and then got off the bed.

I knew she wanted me; I could smell her arousal, but she could not always have her way.

I wanted her to value what we have and not think she could switch us on and off as she liked.

She had never cheated on me since we were together, but being hung on Sylvester was too much for me to handle.

I watched her leave the room and lay back on my bed.

Sleep eluded me completely.

I was hard as hell and somehow regretted turning her down. I knew I was going to have a shitty day.

Sleep finally came in the early hours, and I got two hours of shut-eye.

It wasn't enough, but it was better than nothing.

I got ready for the day and left my room.

My house smelled of breakfast when I stepped out of my bedroom.

I headed to the kitchen, and Susan was making breakfast in her favourite t-shirt, which used to be mine.

She wasn't a great cook and hated being in the kitchen. I guess she wanted to prove herself.

She stopped what she was doing and looked at me.